Take the shackles off my feet so I can Dance...

I think that I want to drop my other blog..

You know why?

Because, I initially created it... just to fit into this box of the blogger world...

I will notttt conform!

It's all the same... everyones got some kind of theme...and talking about certain things, and thats what their blog is about... That's fine for them, but not for me D=

Sorry, I'm just a bit difficult =/

I un like to be labeled or lumped into a category...and as a matter of fact, i rarely posted on that blog subconsciously for the sake of not being put into that box...

and besides, I'm just lazy.

I dont want to post on two different blogs ANNND be frequent about it!!!

That blog, as well as my other, goes by the waste side, and I... am truly free!

Bye bye to the ignorant teenager =/

If you want to sing out, sing out....

What a lovely song... am I right?

Oh... what's that you say?

You say you've never heard the song?

.....And little Timmy is stuck in a well?!


Ok ok, seriously though. That just reminded me of how awesome my dog is. Yesterday as I was feeding her 3 dogs wandered into our backyard and wouldn't leave despite my aggressive and terribly scary "shoo"'s and girly hand flaps =/ Dakota Marley (just call her Dakota) came to the rescue!

I tell you...that girl never barks... its a rare and beautiful thing... but when those dogs came into our backyard she had a ferocious, loud, and scary bark that sent two of the running out of our gate! The other dog jumped and ran to the other side of our lawn but Dakota love still wasn't having that XD doggies broaching our territory.. She let one more rip and that thing was gone like the wind!!!!

Anyways, all rockin' dogness aside... The song... Its beautiful!



This song really speaks to me... mostly because I'm rarely one to take chances, but that's going to change.

You know something else? The thing I've been wanting to do the most, and so darn badly is to just... sing out.

This is but a season.

Last week was very productive, and it made me extremely happy.

"Always dreamed that it would happen.... Just didn't know exactly when. All my life I've been waiting, for something amazing. Said, it took a while but now I know... So, tell me can I get a witness if you believe in miracles? And the proof I have is living. That my life will never ever be... your life don't have to be the.... [same]" Heaven by Jamie Foxx.

I might have quoted a little bit too much, but it seemed fitting =]

I've finally been back in the groove for writing, just as well. Very very productive time I've been having recently. I'm typing up what I've been working on and tweaking, fixing and everything, you know?

Why does it seem like my life goes good when others are having crappy times? Well... I'm praying for y'all who have fallen on hard times, so that your burden may be lifted. But, keep your heads up as well, alright? This is but a season. Times are hard, and they'll only get harder but they can get better if you let them. You all are in my heart. I don't have a good understanding of what you're going through, but I can try, and I can go through it with you. Open mind, open heart, open ears especially. If all you need is someone to listen than I'll do my best....

Ok, well methinks that this is it for this post. I must get back to work!

Love, Peace, and Happiness.~

If I had to...

Plinky asks: Which piece of technology would you rather go without for a month; television, cell phone, computer...? Well... I'd rather not to give up any of those... such a digital world... But, I chose television. Plinky asks: How would you do it?



Oh, that's an easy feat. Done if before. Television is no biggie for me. Cell phone isn't either, but you really need that sometimes. Computer....absolutely not. Sorry. I'm a techi I guess.

Where would I go if I had a bus token with 50 miles credited on it?

Plinky asks. First of all... why would I have a bus token? My city does have the bus, though. That's a first, for one I am actually a resident of, that is.

Because... Yeah....

My favorite teacher

My favorite teacher?! Oh boy this is a toughy. I have so many great ones this year, you don't even know, man!!! I'm not really a favority kind of person either. All of my teachers are fantastic, to be honest. I should just describe the special qualities about each one... I mean... they each have wonderful things about them!!!! 1st period is Mr. Burnham! American History. He's so sweet, and such a softy, I can tell!! And he's so helpful, I actually learn in his class and actually enjoy learning history<3 Next period is Mrs. Asad. English 3 honors. I was bound to love her from jump! Put aside the fact that I love english, she really is a great teacher AND a great person!!! She shines brightly<3 Third period I have Mrs. Feldhaus. Algebra 2. People don't give that woman as much credit as she is worth! And she is terrible funny! 4th period I have Mrs. Berhalter. Reading (I transfered outta state and haven't taken the FCAT so I have to be in a reading class to be ensured that I am aptly prepared. This class is a peace of cake. Little do they know, I love to read!!!) She is a really nice lady, and I feel sorry because my peers are real arses to her. It's not even fair. 5th period, Mrs. Bustamante teachers spanish 2!!! SHE IS AWESOME!!! SWEET AND HARDCORE! AND INNOCENT!!! Wonderful woman. 7th period I have Mrs. Smith for Chemistry Honors. She is really funny and an all around great teacher. She makes science easy for me to get...and stuff! I really enjoy her class...and LAST BUT NOT LEAASSSSTT!!! Mrs. de Gregory!!! Get it right, that's little "de" space, capital G-regory and she'll tell you know different =]! My African American History class...oh... and she's white! She's also kickssa <=== backwards. Nice, and a softy at times too, but she knows when to buckle down, and no one takes advantage of her either. Some teachers that let you do what you want end up getting ran over by their students but not her! Everyone is full of love, respect, and admiration for this wonderful lady =]]] So, you should be able to see how I wouldn't be able to pick favorites... If you mean from an earlier year... I guess I'd have to say Mr. Robinson... 6th grade math... First male teacher... he was black...and he was the best! I saw him last year or so at the theme park with his son too... Mr. Robinson was amazing.

What my clothes say about me

Plinky is asking "What do your clothes say about you right now? Assuming you're clothed. If not, that says something, too, we suppose." They are so clever! My clothes right now say that I am an apt dresser... and a messy eater!!! ;]

Award Show they should have...

_______ (fill in the blank)
In the words of Huey Freeman, an award show that should exist would be... *drumroll please* The Image Awards category for Most Embarrassing Black person!!! For people who just really screw up and put a damper on how others view our race!!!! - read the boondocks comic strip to understand better. I'll start you off with the most recent.



http://news.yahoo.com/comics/boondocks



That's september 22 is the one you should visit, in case they start you off on the wrong page...



Huey is hilarious<3

Bloooooooood.

I'ma have to eat something friday.. maybe even thursday.. I'm eating food right now... but I mean in the morning... maybe even at lunch. Usually i.... skip breakfast and lunch and eat when I get home. In the mornings... I rarely have time. At lunch.. I just don't like eating school lunch or lunch at school! This routine works for me... But Friday I am donating blood... so i'll have to switch that up for a moment. I'm also working the blood drive friday during the first lunch... my fourth period... once again, I am getting out of class... unfortunately it is the easy class... As precaution for that whole anemic thing, I'll be sure to stock up on my multivitamins...today and tomorrow... and friday morning!


one a day one a day... shoulda been doing that all week... i've been feeling GREAT lately though!! WOO! giving blood!!!!

I didn't get to sign anyone up today because they'd already filled up all the spots! lame... but ok =/

I'm so happy... so very happy...... im free!!!!!!!!!!!!

i like like you, do you like like me too?

Wow... I'm so happy....!!!!

It's reciprocated

The feeling is mutual....


The feeling is... mutual

...

im so angry with myself...

for being the same me that i thought i wasn't.

but i dont wanna hold on forever. i wanna let go because it causes me pain, even if its my own fault. i dont want to deal with that. i dont want to learn to deal. i got ruined and once again the short end of the stick and once again its my fault and what can i do? i dont wanna let go but i do

dared to hope...

i knew it... and i tried not to let myself drift into dreamland but i did anyway. and it hurts. it sucks. it stinks. i dont know for sure but thats what i think... the fault of why i get emotionally stepped on is of my own! Am i making something out of nothing? Mountain of a molehill? I do that often, but I'd rather not live a fantasy life and continue to dream of what I cannot have. I'm regular. I saw something extraordinary and dared to dream for it but that was a mistake and the whole time i knew it was, yet still i...

anyways...aside from what im feeling right now today was an ok day. it was nice...and pleasant...and shit.

nothing bad happened, at least. i got my progress report but i already knew my grades.

i presented a project today and did well. my advertisement made people laugh so i'll share it and hope you laugh. we were learning about puritans and had to put together a magazine of what we'd learned, than we were each responsible for an advertisement. here's mine.

"
Hey you!

Yes, you!

Are your little ones getting bigger? Time to start teaching them all about life, and God's plans? Then call 1-800-PURITAN and order them the childrens' book "Everybody Dies." May reality hit them like a ton of bricks!!! "

Apparently my group thought I had the best advertisement, so they chose to read that one aloud. I was embarrassed and flattered. Also, pleased to see I'd made so many laugh. It was nice.... yup...

Today was a good day.

'Nuff said.


Okay, just kidding. It was a pretty average, ok day. I won't bore you with the details. I'm going to donate blood on friday though. yeah baby.

dude mentioned something that kinda scared/worried me for a minute. don't give blood if you're anemic.... well since there is no actual proof that i am anemic... ima go ahead and give some blood! besides, i been feeling great lately. I think...

anywho...

love...

"You know what really grinds my gears?" PT. 2

Here is the last thing that really grinds my gears. My appearance. Not like that, don't get me wrong. I love ME exactly the way I am... What bothers me is not how I look to myself, but how people take in how i look >.
Stating that, I'm going to go ahead and say what I didn't really want to say. I was thinking... I look so young, people (boys) might not like me because I look like I'm too young for them or something, and then I'm over here looking young AND sitting in the freshmen section... Now here is why that doesn't matter to me anyways, and why I'm sort of torn that maybe it MIGHT in fact matter.... okay that was a bit confusing so I'll just explain it...

I'll start with why it might matter, because why it doesn't matter is kind of long, and this is an edit (i already wrote why it doesn't matter) so why it might matter is because i might be wasting my time with why it doesn't matter, or i could be helping it out with why it doesn't matter, if it did matter. That probably makes no sense, but I don't wish to go into further detail... Here is why it doesn't matter... Even if my reason for why it doesn't matter turns out to be.... in vain(?)... I still wouldn't trade it and try to shoot for why it might matter (sorry for not making sense...just venting, I guess). My feelings for why it doesn't matter are two strong, I guess...? Oh boy... now I'm not even making sense to myself...sorry :3

Why it DOESN'T matter to me is because I'm not checking for these boys at this school... I'll misquote my sister. I kept my heart in my wallet and he pick-pocketed it. My eyes have been caught, i guess? I'm walking around this school looking at faces, and examining personalities, and trying to hope some kind of feeling would arise for maybe SOMEONE... granted, these faces are nice to look at (daaaaaaaannng these boys are FOINE) but that's all they are... Pretty faces, and its hard for me to imagine that there is something pleasant underneath that I could grow to like in a romantic sort of way, and its extremely hard for me to even think of a possibility that I could ever love one of them... LOL

Yeah some fool already screwed me up on that one, which makes me sort of angry at that fool, and especially myself... Click this link, you may like what you find, or at least be entertained for 2 minutes, or however long it takes you to read it

also... my parents are cleaning this oil stained carpet - another story, not sure if I told it yet...ask me if you want me to - and the cleaning product is literally killingg me. bout to open up a window, foreal! nah im not... im too lazy... i'll probably sit here and die... or get some extreme...bodily damage....... i should probably go open that window...

"You know what really grinds my gears?"

People. Sometimes. Not all of them. Just ones that don't like to think. Or work. It just really grinds my gears. Using the word dense seems too harsh. But honestly, the things people do/say usually fall in either the category stupidity or ignorance. For the most part, I've been holding my tongue. I've remained drama-less so far, aside from in the hall way one day when some random girls I didn't even know (or even see their faces) tried to prove their badness. I'm so proud of myself. The old me would have turned around and given them what they wanted. To be shown that they hit a nerve. Drama would result, and I'd be in a hellova lot of trouble. I didn't even acknowledge their existence - they tried to push harder - and I still gave them nothing. That turn the other cheek stuff is really a brilliant idea. To be honest I didn't even feel any sort of anger. I did have to stop myself from almost turning around once or twice though, being quite annoyed. But why give them my energy? They weren't worth my time. There is a distinct lack of logic, reason, and common sense among a lot of the youth these days. Ehh, what can you do? Sit, be quiet, and do what you've got to do so you can be able to get out of there by the time your last two years are up. At least that's what I'm going to do. Should I be ashamed that I think it not possible to be able to change people or change the world? I mean not all the time. In some cases people can be changed, but I dunno, sometimes it just seems like a lost cause to me =/

Tolerance...patience... that's the key. That's what I'm doing at this school as well... People are doing a lot of wrong here, just as well as people are doing wrong in the world, and you can't change all of that. Although, I have been able to change a few things for myself, for the better involving people around me, that I guess I could consider friends... (That's what I get confused about.) What I did was... well I have this friend(i guess) who often says sexual things, and racist things... I didn't really appreciate either, so I talked with him about it and he agreed not to say those things around me. He said those things were okay with his friends, I said I'm not his friends, I'm me...and they aren't okay with me. He said "okay" and we're still chillin', no problems.




Prepare for part 2!

Update

=]

So as we know, I am back in school, right? It's been going okay! I've been meeting people making friends and all that good stuff my parents love to ask about... Um... my grades are actually pretty good, and I thought I would bomb, especially in Spanish since I didn't remember anything from Spanish one, but whatever. I'm doing alright.

And you know your girl is college bound. I'm going to become a pharmacist. But... scholarships must be in the cards for that one, I believe. Unless my parents want to do another 9 month stay out in Cali! (I highly doubt it) So yeah I'ma definitely need some volunteer work...especially if I want to be qualified for Florida's Bright Future Scholarships...

I volunteered at the library maybe a month ago, and I hadn't heard from them since. I thought of it as... "Well, they didn't want/need me there, than it's time to keep pushing for something else." Buuuuut I got an email back today from a woman in charge of the whole TAB - teen advisory board - thing telling about the first meeting and times and all that good stuff, and how if you wanted the community service hours that they offered, than you could get them. Hecks yeah.

Thursday was a good day for me in that area as well. I was supposed to see my Assistant Principle/mentor on the first day of school, but she wasn't in her office in the morning and I'd have to use one of my very few passes allowed to go see her during one of my classes. During lunch, she was on watch and patrolling and I wasn't very sure if it was okay to approach her, so I just said eff it.

But, then they started talking about club days approaching and everything... I realized it was in my best interest to try and talk to her to see about getting into that SAC club - student advisory counsel, i think(that was what i was supposed to see her for on my first day of school) - so I just waited for her during lunch and then approached her and blah blah blah talkity talkity, i went to SAO filled out the paper, gave it to her and she signed it just like that... I was thinking "hey that was easy" and stuff...blah blah blah.... yah... Got the club card on Friday, so come Monday, I'll be leaving my classes during club day and going to SAC! woo! another source of community service hours, and something to do during lunch.

The end. There is the update for that kind of stuff. I'm watching X-Men Origins: Wolverine right now... man it is just meeeessssssed up. And, It feels good to be back. Answer me to questions: What's been going on with you all/how have you been doing? AND What do y'all think about the new page?

I changed my... blog

First time in a while ehh?

I am going with this theme. Butterflies. Mariposa. It means butterfly, in Spanish. I can't remember why or what it is, but there is a reason for this theme here... Part of it has to do with India.Arie's song "Butterfly". If anyone listens to that song... would you mind telling me just exactly what theme it is that I am going for?

Anyways... right now, it seems I'm all about the R's... or re's... idunno... reconstruction, renewal, rejuvenation, redefined... I'm redefined.

In a good way, I'd think. Anyways, I'm not going to apologize for not posting, because I'm not obligated to, or getting paid for it... but I will try to post a bit more often. What the blog used to be, even with its someone new layout seemed to attached to what I used to be. Wait... what was I? Mmm.. I wasn't anything bad, I don't think. But I wasn't exactly or entirely what I am now. Whatever that is....

Okay, enough of that.

Next post is update time.

Mariposa

I hadn't really been posting on my secret freedom blog lately. Neither have I been posting on this one but that's just because I haven't felt like it. I've been posting here occasionally though. On my freedom, I hadn't been posting... at all. lol I think i had like 1o posts up there. And I realize why now, is because I don't need to.

We hold in our hands, the most precious gift of all: Freedom. The freedom to express our art. Our love. The freedom to be who we want to be. We are not going to give that freedom away and no one shall take it from us! -Diane Frolov and Andrew Schneider

I ran to make another blog so I could be free and truly express myself, and I didn't even take advantage of that... because doing that would be taking freedom of speech and expression away from my own self, by not posting how I really wanted to on this blog, just because I thought someone whom I wouldn't want to look at this would....

If that makes no sense than, sorry. I started this blog out not really caring about having followers... I was just blogging like it was a journal. It was something with which to occupy my time and vent when i didn't want to spill the beans to all my friends... and then there were followers and people actually read it... granted not many, compared to other blogs, but more than I'd expected... The blog began to attempt to be something else, and be all about my followers and my readers, and what should I do to entertain them, or at least not bore them to death... but its not about the followers, sorry to say. I don't mean to be selfish, or all about the me show but... IT IS RIGHT NOW. I'm sorry. Gearing my blog towards readers is exactly what is taking my freedom away... that's my own fault though, not the fault of any readers... So from hence forth, this blog is all about ME. and it will truly be MY FREEDOM. Time to reshape and reform. It's what I want on here, when I want it on here. If you choose to unfollow me because you disagree with what i've said then deuces, baby! No hesitation.

Dang...

I got it bad.




This truly stinks. I think...

i was singing pretty wings...

that song is so beautiful... i wanna sing it for other people.......




but i won't.


anyone ever watch the powerpuff girls, growing up?

i did. i loved that show. it defined my childhood. okay not really, but i did love it when i was growing up and stuff.

growing up and stuff. articulate, right?

well.... i was feeling something mighty strange awhile ago and instantly thought of that song the powerpuff girls would sing when they had their little band thing...

love love love la la love.... la la love.... makes the world go 'round.

anyone remember that?

that is the epitome of how im feeling right now... *begins to sing*



love love love la la love.... la la love... makes the world go 'round.....

I refuse to deal with customers like this

1PM And You're Getting Warmer...Warmer...No, Colder...Colder...Warmer...

Customer: Umm... Excuse me, do you have that book?
Bookstore employee: Do you know the title?
Customer: No.
Bookstore employee: Do you know the author?
Customer: Uh... No, but they wrote that other book.
Bookstore employee: Do you know where the other book is in the shop?
Customer, brightly: Yeah! It's over there somewhere! (points behind himself to the entire shop)

Darwin
Australia

via Overheard in the Office, Sep 15, 2009

ahahaha!

1PM When I Woke Up, I Was Here.

English professor to secretary: According to my college transcript, I took a course in my freshman year called "introduction to drugs". I have no recollection of this course, and I wonder why.

Gettysburg, Pennsylvania

Overheard by: English Major

via Overheard in the Office, Sep 14, 2009

hello =3

hey bloggers and blog readers!

i haven't really been posting a lot lately *states the obvious* and i don't really know why not. i used to have so much free time (nice way of saying no life) so i was actually able to post 500 times a day but now im in school... that doesnt exactly mean that i have a life or anything, but it does take a big 8 hour chunk out of my day though. i used to stay up well into the next day doing absolutely nothing, but now i find it hard to stay up past 6. LOL

im serious here >.> although i do manage to push it later at times. yeah so basically, all my time is being spent at school or at home asleep. forget about homework....im too sleepy! actual energy is being used now =D

im not feeling anything towards this school though. i dont want to be there, nor do i not... the latter because its easier for me to get an education. which reminds me that i've got some work and studying i need to be doing right now. got to beat the procrastination bug. i only decided to blog because i had gotten this android blogger application for my phone and havent used it yet...plus it was another way to procrastinate. i have lots to update on, and they wont all be in 1 post either, dont worry. lol. but i'll have to do it later. i just havent felt the need for updates D=

anyways, this androblogger app is ok. no way to customize posts, they dont even spell check, punctuate or cap. it for you and im too lazy to do that on my own XD. it also doesnt let you view comments or anything...just posts.....but thats okay though. its all i need 2 do from the phone! plus this is the only app 4 blogger though, i think... anyways ima be out! gotta do that work n stuff...have a great saturday =)

I love Overheard in the Office

4PM It's Better Not to Know Who's Handling Your Money

Teller #1: That person smelled so bad... I thought I had stepped in poop and then I didn't see poop so I thought I was pooping and I checked!
Teller #2: What would you have done if you pulled your hand back and there was poop all over it?!
Teller #1: I ain't know, I was gonna cross that bridge when I got to it, okay?

Charleston, South Carolina

via Overheard in the Office, Sep 11, 2009

Yeah baby.

I dance badly 'cause I'm bad.












..... Ok, that last one is a bit silly. (Nice way of saying offensive to white people.) Having rhythm has absolutely nothing at all to do with race... I'm black and I wouldn't be able to bust a move if I was about to get hit by a Party Bus... ;D

Maia Campbell

So... the video about how her life ended up got put out recently. Anyone remember her? She played Tiffany on "In the House" With LL Cool J, Kim Wayans, and Alfonso Ribeiro (spell check - carlton from fresh prince)

I just saw something that I found funny and felt the need to point out... That so many people are posting on different websites about her situation and the gossip that's going on, and how hard her life is and that she needs help, people should leave her alone.... while they are sitting there posting the videos themselves, so more people who AREN'T going to be as sympathetic, and empathetic, can sit and laugh and gossip about her life and what happened to her some more. Honestly.

Posting that video of her is only contributing to the gossip and you all know it. Its not going to help her at all if everyone in the world knows. Do you think everyone in the world genuinely cares, or is this just another juicy story of celebrities gone wrong? Is it just juicy gossip for you? If so, you should be ashamed. There is no point to posting that video up on every single site. Its not like anyone of you can reach her or help her out, or even knows where she is - and if you do, more power to you; get off your butt and go help her.

Pats on the back for people who aren't saying negative things but the world, and a good amount of people aren't going to see it the way you do. In all honesty, for most its just juicy gnikcuf gossip, so what is the point of putting up that video?! It's only spreading it around. Don't be part of the contribution to make this girls life worse than it already is (by spreading it around so that EVERYBODY AND THEIR MAMA'S KNOW.) Clearly in the video she expressed that she didn't want to be filmed and that they were in her business, where they didn't belong. The person who filmed the video did not have the consent to do so. She didn't want her business out there like this. That's not something to be proud of. Therefore, you had no consent to post that video all over the internet. Its an invasion of privacy. Put yourself in her place. Just because she took a wrong turn, and happened to be in the eyes of the public beforehand does not mean she is not still a human being.

That's the problem that pisses me off so much. People think celebrities are these android/cyborg beings that don't feel pain, or have their own rights AND constitutional rights like everyone else. The general, unspoken rules of human decency do not get applied to celebrities, but here's the surprise... THEY ARE PEOPLE. WE ARE THE IDIOTS WHO CHOSE TO ACT LIKE THEY WERE SUPREME BEINGS.


I think i'll end this one right here. I was about to go on a rant and i want to get back to playing the sims 3. that game kicks major ssa. <==== word is backwards