Things Change

They sure do.

Usually when a person puts up a title like that you'd expect them to go deeper into the topic.

I won't though. Why? Because I don't feel like it. This blog might get read by someone I don't want to see it. I might just have to make a completely new one for those extremely personal thoughts. Don't follow, its personal. I just have to be able to get it all out from somewhere. I just kind of wish things weren't changing...but isn't this what i wanted? I can't make up my mind. Forget what I wanted then. What about what I want now? It's in the paasssst let it go, i'm sorry =/

ohkay thats about all i could say on that.... might get a bit too personal.

maybe i'm just making something out of nothing but i'm really feeling this drift and separation lately and i don't like it. I guess it is just getting us ready for what's to come when I go back to school, but why start early? Why not enjoy the time now.

I wonder if I am the only of this party that see's at all what is going on. Does the other of the party realize? Not care? Is there a reason? Can't ask or talk about it, i don't think. Can't list reasons for that. Best to just let things flow as they are because everything happens for a reason. Let it flow. Things flow and the direction of said flow changes. Things change. Don't want them to but can't stop it from happening.

Ohh well =/

I don't feel like making this post look sexy either. Just the plain, how it is now is fine.

Stupid problem of getting attached. I tried not to. What the hell happened to "strong willed"?? Forget that. I am weak. Simply weak. Just want to...unmask the superhero, object of my hero syndrome (is it? or is it that word that starts with an "I"? No way it could be that big deep word that starts with an "L".....???? "L" isn't "L" if its not returned...... right?) <========= if you didn't understand a lick of that... ask me =o


*Edit*

Oops... I went ahead and went deeper into the topic anyways... lmao At least I didn't go tooooo deep into it. But... chea...(haven't said that in a long time...that part of my personality was fueled by my buddy... I'm missing you buddy but I guess we've all got to go our separate ways at some point... Sad that the times we talk are so few and far between. I wish I hadn't moved from Georgia. Forget the drama at Etowah, all was well that second year. But still I ran, like a coward.)


Ohkay.... definitely yeah... I am DEFINITELY going to make that other blog now. Deeper into my actual thoughts we go. The Inner Mechanisms of My mind...etc........................... is No longer a safe place for me. I'm back in a box and this blog is no longer my freedom. So that's what my other blog will be. My Freedom. Time to get started.


If you would like to visit My Freedom....i'm sure if you know your blogger site then you'll be able to find where it is hiding. I refuse to post a link on this blog for fear that My Freedom will be seized. I pray its location won't be compromised >.> If you would like to be annoyed, freaked out, bored, terrified or maybe even entertained...then you can check out My Freedom when it is ready... but know that it is exactly what it's name implies >.>.... I might even disable commenting... Keep it truly Freeeeee....... Uh oh.. Time to get dressed... We're going back to Universal today. But everyone has been asleep all morning and partly still are. Woo baby. There is a lot I haven't blogged about. Been having busy days lately. Maybe that's why there is some drifting going on? better charge that phone, i might be able to prevent the drift...



no... it's no hero syndrome....its no infatuation... its e v o l <====== that's backwards....


*through your flaws i see perfection*

Wtf?

Wtf?

On my last post, blogger was acting trippy. My HTML was all wrong or something, and well, stuff just wasn't working out at all hehehe xD

I couldn't even sexify the post like i wanted to. Everytime i went back into compose, half of my post disappeared, which would have been a huge waste because man, that mess took too much time to write. I was a bit distracted. This caused the post to take longer than life itself *_*

I did the little bit of bolding and italicizing that I could... but apparently that got chopped and screwed as well. When I looked at the post in my regular blog it all looks screwed up >.< you all might as well just ignore that post LOL. Actually, it didn't make much sense anyway come to think of it =o!

But it's whatever.

My family is back from bowling. My brother and I managed to stay home from this one. One of my reasons for staying turned out to be for nothing anyway, but I still wanted to stay even aside from that. Oh... also today we played volleyball in the pool for a good couple of hours. They really cheated but their excuse was "SO! Yall know how to swim!" But that excuse was crap.

They had 3 people playing in the smallest section of the shallow end, so all of their ground was covered. We had two people, and it wasn't even matched because i have no REAL skill at volleyball 8-) (<==== on MSN that would be a smiley face rolling its eyes...) oh and we were in the deepest part of the shallow end and could barely stand up (it was almost 6 feet) AND we had larger ground to cover. They kept throwing the ball into parts of the pool that we couldn't even stand up in and were calling it "in". Even when we established formally that it was out, unfair, and there was no way for us to even be able to get back there and stand up at the same time, it was like everyone just ignored the rule and the same "out" place was still in 8-) (<===== there is that eye roll again)

Yeah, they were so excited to be beating people in those unfair conditions whilst cheating, but we still managed to beat them twice, the way we had to play. (they beat us thrice i think)
Oh! and I got smacked in the eye with the volleyball...I also really hurt my toe =(

But it's all good. Today was a good day =))))))

How was yours?

Individualism

Previously on "Briana's World"

Bri: LOOK! It was a very funny experience, I'll blog about it later! Get off my back alright?

Readers: But this is what you came here for!?! To share the moments! You have to give us this story now. Don't skimp on the goods Briana o.o!

Bri: I just don't have the time. Why can't you understand that?

Readers: Don't have the time??? BITCH, you aint doing anything!??!!!!!

Bri: wha the HELL....??! I KNOW you aint call me out my name! And anyway that's not what I meant.

Readers: BITCH. BITCH. BITCH. BITCH. BITCH. You can't do anything about that. This is all virtual, babeh >.
And if that's not what you meant then why don't you just lay it on out for us, alright?

*conversation gets gentler on both ends*


Bri: OKAY. Ok. What I meant to say was that it was a completely different topic, and would just make that post too unnecessarily long. I'm sorry ='/

Readers: Alright, alright, alright. We can understand that. All you had to do was explain and it never would have even gotten that far =/ We're sorry as well for not trying to understand, and for being disrespectful.

*everyone has a touching blogger family moment, virtually hugs, and virtually makes up. feel the love*


Ok ok ok lmao! I'm done people i'm done. That was supposed to be like a soap opera if you didn't catch on =o (what a sappy ending, right? lets have a vote, let me know in the comments if you'd like me to make the ending more dramatized or if you like it how it is)

Oh and there was no message in that or anything (lies) But I will say that no one has been disrespectful or anything, it was just ideas in my brain. (truths)

Well anyways the thing that i was talking about in the last post was about individualism. I'd said how i was going to tell a story about that... its more funny to me because i was there lmao. You have to experience the moments in person and see the facial expressions and the jokes and everything. my memory isn't so great that i can remember all of those though... sorry for the let down =/

Well anyways my brother and I rode in the car with our parents to the bank a few days ago and we had to sit in and wait. This fool put the seatbelt across the top of his head *coughAGAINcough* and was talking about how it was "in" and it was the "new style" and he just wanted to be an "individual" and then claims "soulja boy wears them like this and if soulja boy does it, its cool, because soulja boy is cool. so i want to do it to because if i copy soulja boy then I TOO will be cool"(yeah, there is no message in that either. *cough*)

So we go on in our little imagination-land scenario like we usually do (its great fun, i love to pretend, and create worlds with my mind. I should probably do that on paper for once lmao) and I'm going at him about how for one soulja boy does not equal cool, and how are you going to be an individual doing something someone else does just to be cool and blah blah blah lmao and he goes on to say things about how he didn't really see it from soulja boy he just wanted to be an individual and make his mark on the fashion world, by wearing a seatbelt on his head mind you XD!

This boy is a riot. So blah blah blah more talking and laughing and jokes and i say something along the lines of why would you try to start something by claiming soulja boy does it. how would that make you an individual...and i said something about that not being individualism... lmao this fool told me that wasn't even a word, and i was just inventing words and claiming them to be real! So what i did was take out my phone.

(tmobile G1, if you've been with me from JUMP)

and use the dictionary application i downloaded =o (it was FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE; have i portrayed through blogger exactly how cheap i am? I mean *cough* frugal? I'll have to blog about that later, please remind me, it gets to be kind of funny... if you can't laugh with me then, laugh at me) and i typed in individualism.

there it was plain as day but my brother still refused to believe it was a word (jokingly of course) he said not a dictionary made after '95 or something then it was 3:33 or something so i told him to make a wish and i said i wish it was a real word (mistakenly of course, because i knew it was real) then when we got home and I found it in an old dictionary (it might not have been old, it was just HUGE. monster dic., i call it.)





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<================= that sounds wrong now that i think about it... but i'm going to leave it there and see what happens. lmao! PLEAAASE tell me your responses to seeing that. XDDD So when I found it and I showed him, he claimed it was only in there because I wished for it!!? Goofy boy.


Well that's it. I've been typing for entirely too long, as you can very well see. The fact that its a very long post actually has nothing to do with it though, im a fast typer even when sleepy (as long as i am using two hands, but sometimes even with one) but i've been talking to folks =o Met this cool cat from germany that runs these sites. RihannaDemosTV blogger page and RihannaDemosTV YouTube page! Check that out people!!



Well anyways, ima be out. I'm getting kind of sleepy.

Goodnight lovelies!

~LovePeace&Happiness~

My answer =o

A person (check out their blog, I really dig it) asked a question on their own blog..... i originally tried answering in the comment but the shit got too long so i thought i might as well post it lmao!

They asked how to get followers... and mmm... i don't really know.... i may not be the best person to help because i don't have many myself, but i figured "might as well give my opinion". and of course, help to the best that I can.

See....You can't really shape your content to be what someone else likes because everyone's preferences on what they would like to read about is different. Plus you wouldn't want to become someone elses blog and have everyone reading the same thing but just written by a different person. That's so monotonous. The best thing i like about some of these blogs is that they are all different, but some... im going to have to go and unfollow in a moment because they are all basically the same thing, just written by a different person and its a dang shame. Where in the world is the individualism? (lmao that reminds me of a funny story, I'll blog it in a moment)

The best thing to do is keep your blog how it is, you know? Express your own self. If people like it then they are going to keep reading it, and maybe possibly follow it, but there's no way to force it.

I've been finding other blogs to read by going through other peoples pages. If I like their blog, i'll follow them and sometimes they follow me back =o.... that's pretty much my existence of followers lol.. I never ask them to follow me back though. the whole "follow me follow you" thing is played out. I say if you like me, follow me. If you don't, sucks for you. But why fill up you dashboard with a bunch of blogs you aren't really interested in following just so they can follow you back?

A good way to do it is to go to different sites, forums included and post your blog link all over them. That's basically spamming though. You'd have to do that the right way though, man. I'm serious....some people seem extremely desperate as they are posting their link trying to force others to read.

"oh please oh please read and follow my blog"

stuff like that... and stuff like posting 50 of the same links in one post. a simple check out my blog will suffice. lol! Something even more subtle is to just leave your comment that is about the post and put your blog link at the bottom lmao. Some people don't even comment on the post they are looking at. They just drop in, say hey check me out. hey follow me. Why??? Are you following me??? What did you even think about my post??? Did you even read it??? LOL!

Its ridiculous man.

Also... you should try going to the forum sit dot com. The site is basically what its name implies accept its fun and the topics people (and yourself) come up with are just crazy sometimes. if you like to debate then that is most definitely for you, and i don't but i still had fun on that site. best thing about that is that people become your really good friends too if you let them. Pretty much everyone on there is awesome but, like everywhere, sometimes you get a few jerks :S

It simple, if they get to know you even just a little bit then they will look at your blog, and follow you if they like it. I spent so much time on that site having fun and getting to know ppls though that I lost site of why i joined and didn't even try to get people to read my blog after awhile XD!

Hope I helped a slight bit, but if i didn't, sorry =/

I aint been doin it =/

Bloggin that is.

Been a bit busy peoples, and iiiii would like to apololie. just kidding. (am i?)

what's been going on with me you ask?

.........tiiiiiiiiiiiihs (thats backwards)

NOTHIN LOL!



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Okay that was a lie too :S


You know we just moved and all, right? We've really just been getting settled. OH and we finally have food in this house =o!
We had a bit before but it was nothing I wanted to touch so I was kind of starving, just a bit :S

Picky, much? Naaah....

I think LAZY is the better word!

I didn't feel like going in there and cooking either, or having to find utensils...and crap to cook it in [we just moved] and having to cook for everybody, and nobody eating it D=

I must be used to the whole every man for himself thing when it comes to food in our house. I'd cook if it wasn't all processed tihs. my PRs are always throwing up that "this is how we eat" and "we don't cook" i don't want to eat that way >.> how the hell some nurses not going to be health conscious?? And then have the nerve to wonder about why[or rather, how] someone gained weight LOL.

its trippy man.

Also, my aunt and her family came last night. They went to Disney World today... I guess my mom didn't know about that one LMAO! Supposedly we were supposed to go to these places all together, but they only mentioned Universal and tried to act like they didn't have money for anything else[tryna leech some], yet they're going to Disney today XDD!

I hope they have fun though, I think today is my aunt's anniversary.

We were supposedly going bowling today lmao!!!! I am so glad though, to say the least because today I didn't feel like doing TIHS which is freakin funny because I've been stuck in one house or the other for about a year now. Or rather, one apartment, one hotel room, and one house or the other for about a year now... LOL

Awww man FML!!!!!!!!

I just went downstairs to find some freakin food right? Here the kcuf I find there's nothing that excites my taste buds >.
GRRRR!!! >.
Man eff this, I'm just gonna choke something down. I should have had somewhat of a hand in the groceries we picked but nooooooooooooooooo.....
I won't even get into that tihs....

Anyways I wish you a good day, bloggers and blog readers....and als0oo....~LOVEPEACE&HAPPINESS~

I CAN'T WAIT!!! O.O!!!!

My book!!!

I was just thinking about this... well you know the story on that, in my other post "cloudy with a chance of meatballs"

OMG I IZ SO HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!

WATCH WATCH WATCH

Sorry that I couldn't post the video up here. They had the embedded code thing disabled. I would have ripped the video from YouTube and uploaded it to blogger from my computer as if it was my own video, but i forgot that i uninstalled that software... my comp was acting crappy....

Well... I hope you enjoy this movie =o

I'm not going to see it from that crappy website though... I'm gonna pay for this movie. YEAH BABY!!!!

Mind Over Matter

Apparently this is so

Apparently this is true
Tell yourself something, long enough
It becomes your truth

The feeling isn't wanted
By source or who it's haunting
But, stained, it is
Wash, you can't
How, ever can you be undaunted?

That's a question you can't answer
This feeling is like a cancer
Untreated, it grows
As your mind, it taints
Here is your plan, break out that paint

Grab the brush, cover up that stain
Work, work and hide and feign
For the moment you think you'll feel better
Swallowed by nothing but sunny weather
But rain WILL come back and that paint it will chip
The stain revealed, your soul begins to rip

Do you feel with your heart or with your head?
Would you rather turn said heart to lead?
Could you live that way?
What a world it would be
All emotions void, all are zombies

Time has come now, listen not to your heart
The head's got this handled, better finish, better start
Say what you want, it shall be
Gone, it will and set you free


~Briana Stewart~


Original poem of mine. I wanted to share it.

*Don't try jacking, my junk is backed up*

Emotionally Attachable?

Madre claims I wear my heart on my sleeve...

I do have a tendency to get attached easily...that's a problem...and I'd thought I'd found the right way to fix it, but that failed =/

Basically =o I like this person but I feel deeply that the feeling is not mutual... and I'm just getting hurt; its my own stupid fault. So I'm going to practice some freaky mind over matter crap =o

Apparently, if you wish something to be true, hard enough..then eventually it will be true to you =o

I'ma try that mess too. lol.

I don't want to like this person...right now it feels like no one else will ever measure up, and I'll never feel for anyone the way I felt for this person... but I don't want to be like that...ruin every future relationship I have, by thinking about a person that was never mine to begin with, instead of thinking of the person I'm with at the moment =/

This feeling is hindering me...only leaving me in heartbreak each time the not so shocking realization hits... and its only going to leave me in more heartbreak... so I'm just going to try to get rid of it...mind over matter...

But, you see the thing is...its stained in the back of my mind...

The type of things that get stained in the back of your mind, they are kind of their forever. No amount of magic products, and washing and scrubbing can get rid of it. The best you can do for it is... paint over it. The thing about that is, though, over time the paint peels, and tears. The stain becomes revealed again. It was never really gone to begin with.

That is just the same as how, previously, I would try to get rid of things I was feeling...like depression for instance. I would force it back to the darkest corner of my mind, but every now again, like a bad kid in time-out, it would poke its head out and then start running around and wreaking havoc. The times I wasn't feeling the depression, it was never really gone. That's why it was so easy to come back.

I don't know man =/

I'm not going to try to paint over this stain, this time. I'm going to keep mentally scrubbing at it until its gone completely. Mind over matter. I can shake this feeling.

I'm silly...

Nah not really, I'm a realist >.

(lies)

I'm pretty much a mixture of both, and I wonder which takes over the most.

For one.. when someone has something they might need to tell me... I'd rather they not kcuF around, trying to spare my feelings and what not =o

just tell me what they have to say so i get a dose of reality and get over whatever was ailing me in the first place... =o

you know what i mean?

Get right down and dirty, to the nitty gritty of the matter =o...

i mean saying something in a nice way is never opposed but i mean just someone doing everything and anything to cause no hurt feelings, ending in my living in some imagination-land with my head in the clouds?

my parents are very honest with me when it especially matters, so i think that might be where i get that from...
who knows =o

that also hinders me a bit though... i look at things with such logic, and see everything realistically and then i things like "what are the odds of me being able to do that or have that or become that"...that might stop a bit though... I'm going to bring this pharmacist dream to waking life =o

writing as well >.> (definitely)


Maybe Canada...


I've learned something from my uncle but i need to check my sources...he said that tax takes away 50% of your paycheck over there >.>

Now Hun, i can't have that XD.......

Then with this chance of going to college over there - I'm going to try to put that to life as well - maybe living over there for four+ years (grad school) and just going to college might be all i need...just that little taste of Canada...

of course i could always figure out if that's what i want to do and where i want to be when I get out of school... but idk man... I'm rethinking it... one son in the air force, and of course moved out...and of course one daughter being estranged, last ones in Canada running a business >.> the visits will be limited......that's too much for my mom....
I don't know what I'm going to do now...I've got time to decide though, and figure it out a bit more. lol LOTS of time. But idk...It seems like I might be deserting my family if I did that. I mean that WAS the original plan.

I was planning for Canada so I could just be able to get away for a little bit. Things change you know, but I don't have that desire to get away anymore... I don't think I will again, but who knows...

For a while now its just been me wanting to go to Canada just to want to go. I noticed all of the benefits and everything... This place just caught my eye and I began to want to go for other reasons... but I dunno... I think I might be bound to the states yall =o

Well this post be out!

~LovePeace&Happiness~

P.S. If you hadn't noticed by now those ^ are my favorite colors in that order =o!
(the love peace and happiness sign)

ppls with their own essence

the beyonce wannabees... the halle berry's... and then there is janelle monae... individual looks how she wants... she really is lovely...


i'm not beyonce wanna be... and definitely no halle berry... but i'm certainly no janelle monae... where do i fit? why do i bother? im not going to try to be anything im not...

just going to be me. dress how i like do what i like. according to how i feel. *warning: exerpt from conversation* i would hate to be lumped in a category...you know? that really sucks...for people trying to be beyonce and halle berry... then what's left for them? they can't all be janelle monae...and if they just dress however they want according to how they feel and what they like they get lumped into a category of trying to be someone else =o i just felt like saying that... i see it a whole lot...not just with ppl into the hip hop clothes and shit...it even goes for people labeled as emo or goth based on a style of clothes they like... generalizations...they really suck..

If I am anemic...

I wonder what I would do =o

it's been suggested for me to get a blood test... eat foods i don't have and don't plan on buying that have iron in them.... and take iron pills >.>

well...

1. i suck at swallowing pills
2. i doubt my parents are buying those foods, and when they give the grocery shopping duties to me, i know i won't be buying them and
3. i haven't gone to the doctor since i was a little baby for anything other than the annual school physical. not even when i fell and put a dent in my leg. we actually went that time though, sat in the waiting room for 5 minutes, and then went shopping =/ Whenever something is wrong with us, my parents don't take it into account for the fact that they are nurses and know better than we do about illnesses and everything, sure sometimes our hurts and sicknesses might not have been too much, but what about if they are.. i have a freaking lump in my chest and could be walking around with cancer, but i figure its just a fibroadenomas..... who cares.. i'm still alive =/ i had a spider bite and people warned me something about that could have been bad.. i mentioned it, it was overlooked.. i actually got through to my mom AFTER the fact by posting a previous picture of it on facebook of the spider bite. facebook. a site she lives on. forget looking at my arm in real life when i'm right next to you. lets wait two weeks until its gone, and see if im dead or not. good thing i was right, those people that told me it could be serious...well they were right too...it COULD have been serious but it wasn't... i said it wasn't..and it wasn't...so we all were right i guess...now this whole anemia thing...i shoulda kept my mouth shut... i have a blabbing problem...personally, i think its nothing and nothings wrong with me, but someone said its not good to overlook it....my friends mom was in the hospital for it...but my mom who's had a claim to anemia for years hasn't stopped kicking, or sat in a hospital bed or anything...she just kept working and living her life.. same as I am doing.. living my life... nothing wrong here...i don't think... or maybe i'm just trying to convince myself of that, so it won't hurt so much if i get overlooked again...who knows =o


*post of mine from TFS, I thought I would share*

~Love,Peace&Happiness~

Good Morning Loverlies

How Is everyone doing? Wait... "Good Morning" I cannot say. It's 12:44 in the afternoon >.>

I guess I say this because I just woke up...

I went to sleep at 5 this morning.

I wonder why my sleeping schedule is so out of whack, but I think that I just do not like to sleep. I don't know =/ Who knows =/ Who cares? I don't =o

Actually...that's a lie... I do care... My sleeping habits have got to change before school starts. The past year or so, a lot about me has changed including things physical, like the way I sleep (not much), the way I eat (not much), and how frequent I get headaches (...much) I've begun to bruise easily as well, just like my mother. Her claim is anemia, and apparently I've got it too... A friend of mine was saying the same thing about me and looked up the symptoms.

Loss of Appetite
Head Aches
Insomnia
Tiredness

I'm sure there was something else in there... Or maybe not...but who cares =o

Apparently, I need more iron in my diet... Eh... =/

He tried to get me to eat all sorts of foods I don't like and have never tried, as well. I told him that his anemia claim was whack. Lol. Then listed explanations for all of those =o They seem pretty valid to me... I ain't nothing, especially not anemic... But just in case.... I might want to try that iron thing >.>

Soweee

Followers of my other blog Ignorant Teenager

I just want to say sorry =o

I've been neglecting to have a post over there and I know what its about.

I mean... I don't have a specific plan for this blog... I just do it because its mine...But that other one I had something set, and I failed to do it..so... sorry yall =o

My most recent post on there....I started typing that one out about.....3 weeks ago. =/

Then I stopped it and kept it in drafts. No excuses for that. For those expecting some good, meaningful, or at least going to show you something new like a product or something, from this blog....you've got another thing coming I guess XD! That's not what this blog is about...It's just my life and what I'm feeling...and what I want to write about. This blog is FREEDOM. My freedom, and I won't be in shackles for anyone =o

If you're looking for something else in a blog...then I wouldn't blame you if you unfollowed =o But I wouldn't change my blog either... The other that I've listed previously is a slight bit different from this one so maybe that would interest you a bit better, i dunno... Well... Have fun with stuff, and I hope that you enjoy my blog anyway =o

On a lighter note... anyone catch Chris Brown's apology? My cousin told me about it so I googled, then watched the video online... Trippy....

Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs

You want to know something funny? A couple months ago i was reflecting on how I missed my favorite book, wished I could read it again...and it should be turned into a movie...then, a couple days later, I happened across something by chance whilst surfing the net for something completely random...and I found that my favorite book would be turned to a movie. What a great feeling, I was so happy and feeling blessed.

The same peculiar thing happened again, recently. A couple days ago I was reflecting on a children's book I used to read when I was a lil baby. I loved that book dearly, yet for the life of me I could not remember the name. I wished I could read it again, but that wasn't going to happen, especially if I didn't know the name of it =/
So I was feeling all sad about my book, and left to reflect on the memories of it. My mind kind of works in pictures, so I was just staring at the pictures I remembered, from reading that book. This was a few days ago, maybe a week.

Now, Today... I was looking up movies online.... to go to the store and buy legitimately *cough*. I stopped doing that for a minute and decided to look up a vampire movie that was coming out... (remind me to blog of that later, what is this? Vampire season???) My friend wanted to make sure it didn't have the same title of an anime he was into, called "Blood+". I don't know why. He just didn't. Probably because movies always ruin good things.

I still haven't found it yet because I got sidetracked when I saw a movie with a title of duh duh duh duh!! Cloud With a Chance of Meatballs!!! A tiny bit of that escaped from my memory and it started to come back to me, so I went to the page and saw meatballs falling from the sky in the picture. It was my book...!!!! I am so excited and happy to learn about this... its being turned into a movie! AND I get to know the title now to go and find my book again... I'm so excited and feeling ultrablessed even if its just for something so little as my favorite book and my childhood memories being turned into a movie, i see it a blessing =o Really lifted my spirits as well, to learn of these things. Oh! I am so happy!!! (said with an accent...can't remember what kind...)

ooh wow... i started writing this post hours ago, literally. and i just conked out. i havent had much sleep the past couple days. later ppls

Mmmm hmmmm

I wanted to show case my artistic abilities and talents that i have which are so very great. (lies.)

I drew marvin the martian, man. he looks like a freakin gay ninja doing a dance XD! Its so awesome. i'll show you mine and compare it to the original.
those are it. up above, up there =o... enjoy =D Hope the gay ninja doing a funky dance made you smile =) even if it was barely cracked =o

I want a pizza now, too =/

Bizarre and hilarious. This was crazy. I wonder if that one call where she actually got to the pizza place really was real like she said lmao. All the others seemed real. I wish it was real..that'd be even more hilarious.

Don't burst my bubble

Hey Peoples!

I iz so proud of myself...

I made a very crappy drawing =D

I haven't drawn in a long time either =o

But still, even if i had, the drawing would have came out the same =/

I have no skills on that matter XD!

Well I decided to upload a picture of my drawing...well two... sorry, one features me in it. Guess I conceited? Nahh I just like to smile =D

The second one focuses on the words though..and no I couldn't have scanned it. I don't have a scanner. So I snapped a pic. My dad has one though but even if he'd let me use it, I dun wanna share my picsie >.>

WOO!

Kay, lemme up load to photobucket and then put ze pics in zere.







....Sorry, I just had to throw that last one in there, I iz feelin happy ;)

Hmm......My fours look like crap...those are fours by the way... oh and the third pic, Number One's thoughts are "I am the loneliest number that you'd ever see" in case you can't see it very well. (Yeah I spelled it wrong in the pic, so what.)

I was singing songs, then I sang that one song..well the only part of that song I knew, that goes "ONE IS THE LONELIEST NUMBER THAT YOU'D EVER SEEEEEEE. TWOOOOO CAN BE AS BAD AS ONE BUT THE LONELIEST NUMBER IS THE NUMBER ONE" (spelled it right this time snitches) Yeah....SO do you see where I was going with, with the whole picture? Shall I spell it out? Nah... you're smart ppls and that is simple =o Hope you got a smile out of this anyway =/ you know they ARE contagious. Like STD's =o (its true)

laterrrrr.

;)





P.S. I IZ SO TALENTED!!!!!

P.P.S. YES THOSE ARE BRACES (just kidding, those are my grillz............)

P.P.P.S. I meant to say UPLOAD not up load XD!

yo..

internet got jacked..

i was using the neighbors so the signal wasn't quite.. up to par.. whatever

well it messed up the night my cousins got here, now tonight they are leaving and it just started to work again lol...

well thats pretty much it. sorry for the lack of reads, and sorry for not reading back. i don't feel like it. and with how much all you guys I follow post... i'll be reading all night lol - thats a good thing though.. you guys are on the ball...or whatever... later ppls.

"Baby Come Back"

Is what they were calling... =o

So I did...

Nah foreal though, we got back in town last night, i slept for a minute too man, sleep has really been limited this entire trip. now we're back though but my poor dad had to do some more driving after that... he gets back 'round six tonight anddd... duh duh duhh duhhh!!!! my auntie shayla and her family are coming to help since we couldn't get any help otherwise =/ and in the morning my dads going to go look for some ppls (day laborers) to help with the heavy stuff... we had some really hard working ones in alabama... we couldnt give em a lotta cash either (thats limited 4 us too right now) but we did give em a lotta nice stuff though =o

tis all good. i need food and drink. and sleep. sorry ppls i dun wanna make this post sexified.... im too tired... surprised im even typing.. oh and about my other blog, sorry those posts have been limited =/ i'll get back on it and respond to your emails a.s.a.p =/

laterrs

~love, peace&happiness~

Why? Cuz I felt like it =.=

Today I felt like going ahead and cranking out this post. Something to say before I leave you all with no reads from me for a minute =3

I'm about to drive 7-8 hours back from Florida to Alabama. Going to pack up my room and load the trucks and then drive 7-8 hours back. Not the longest drive we've been on though. Plus we used to make this route all the time when I was younger, just to go visit. I'll probably manage to find a way to get on the internet and post though. I always do lol, it's like I can sniff out a connection. XD Anywhoo... Wait.. no sniffing connections here, I'm not bring dear replacement compy =/ ...there is my old one at home though... and my cell phone, if I can sneak that with my (;

Even though we're getting all of our stuff, I'm still going to be sleeping on this floor and getting cotton in my hair =/

My old bed set is t000oooOOOooo big for this room. Make it feel all claustrophobic and stuff (YESSS I'M FREEEEEE) lol....

I hope (pray) when we go back that I can manage to see some people that I really want to see, before we come back to FL... I mean, because honestly... I won't see them til we're adults and grown =/ It's a sad truth that we all understand even though we always keep hope alive and be like "man, when i see you ima do this" and what not blah blah blah blah, ya know? stuffs like that...though it aint gonna happen =o

Oh well though, I can clutch at false hope!! (I finally remembered that phrase XD!)

Oh and when we get back... My aunt and her family are coming to our house, for their anniversary... and they are staying for a week. That's going to be fun =/ They've been distanced from the family, in some kind of petty fued (on both sides) so we haven't been able to see them because one side of the family didn't want us too... So we aren't going to let them know =3

Isn't that extremely petty and just too much work? That you can't have a relationship with one family member because the other is fighting with them is just ridiculous. It sure brings you back to elementary school though doesn't it. Lmao, and these are the mature "adults" we're talking about, here... They need something better to do honestly, and to stop wrapping my mom up in their crap. Stressful man...

Oohh yeah and also... my mom wants to invite a family friend over when my aunt and them come... We haven't seen them and they are "dying" to see us or whatever... So that'll be cool... They're going to come and swim at our house... I wonder if it'd be intruding if they showed up while family members were over....? Oh and the one friend is supposedly preggers..but she's a joker though so I hope it aint true.... If so... congratulations =/

Welp, I'ma let this post be out yall... I don't think I have much more to say right now.. I was just cramming it all into one post because I won't be here for the next couple days. Hey don't unfollow me, I'll be back D=


~wishing you love, peace&happpiness~

get my arsey farsey in school, already!

duuuuuude....
you do not know how ready i am to be back in school already.
home school was a mistake this year foreal though.
i miss real people, real smells(wtf? lmao), and real voices.
My cyber buddies are cool though =o(shoutout).
Hey don't judge me... its flippin weird to go up to a random person and start talking... people look at u like ur crazy if you aren't in school lmao. and you're a kid.
talk to a guy, they'll think you're tryna holla...talk to a girl they'll be actin all snotty...maybe thats not all of em thats just my opinion from what i've seen and experienced...
oh but there is this one friend whose voice I got to hear, it was nice too.
could probably listen all day.......hmm probably? no...nah definitely =o
I "knew" this friend as a kid.
Not really though.
Friend was my cousins friend, and the few times i was around this person, the person was silent...
So I didn't really "know" this person...and half of the time this person *sadly admits* was kind of "invisible".
I mean of course i noticed the person was there, i just didn't care much or remember much about them. =/
Hadn't seen this person since I was a kid though the person insists i saw them with in the last three years but thats utter horse shit...
So we started talking and now this person is honestly my closest friend =o
I would most definitely like to keep it that way... so....my silly way of getting attached... yeah thats getting done with lol xD
if that makes no sense and you actually care to know what the heck i mean then send me an IM or email xoxbri93xox@hotmail.com... I'd prefer IM though because most of my email to that address is spam so it all gets deleted pretty much without my looking at it.. ok so if you don't havewindows live messenger and you actually give a flying hoot about that or just want to talk - making friends is fun =D, then send me an email at blithevisionary93@rocketmail.com...yup yup yup....ok now i think i am done with this post....time to edit and make it all sexified... (i invented that, you owe me money if you use that word, just kidding...spread it around...get it popularized...then it'll be in moves and stuff!!!) Aaah neverminds... im such a lazy sack of crap... i don't feel like sexifying this post lmao...i started , as u can see...with the tiny words up there...

Absurd(letscallthisar.o.a.s.tmoment)

is it silly for me to not put up a fresh post for a few days because I want badly, when i get fresh traffic or am not sure followers have seen that post, to see the last one that I posted?
like that footprints in the sand one that comes right before this =/
I wanted to leave that up there for a while now because that story means so much to me that it even took me forever to even grab some gall(???) to post this one too...
That's all kind off goofy I think though.
lmao.
I might want to stop doing that, eh?
Also, I kind of want to add something actually meaningful to this post.
But it'd be kind of bomb rushed.
So I guess I will just make another post after this.
Check the archives people.
That's what its made for, I guess xD
lmao!
Man, I sure am a bit ridonkculous, aint I?
Man... As I finish editing and making this post look all sexy and stuff... it looks scattered lmao!
What I tell, huh??
Absurd.

Footprints in the Sand.

Anyone ever hear of this story, or poem? I read it when I was smaller. My mom had the picture in our house hung up on the wall. She had a lot of pictures like that back then. This story is just one that has always meant a lot to me, I guess. (even at a young age?)

~One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: one belonging to him, and the other to the LORD.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very
lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it:

"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."

The LORD replied:

"My son, my precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you."~


What do you think of this story? Personally, I love it. But I won't object to your own views on it... I'd just like to know. =)

lookit me =o!!!

I done went and wrote something man! Aint that amazin...? haha just kidding. but yeah i did right something. do not expect it to be any good >.> just a poem written in sleepiness, based of a psm on my wlm screenname ^,^ here goes it, if ya don't like it too bad =/ you've read and its in your brain! bwahahahah!

I see it clearly.
Its crystal, you see.
Odd.
Oddly me.
Odd, me.
I'm odd, I'm me.
Me.
Odd.
See?
See not, do you?
Well, sad.
For I see me.
Oddly but clearly.
Strangely but crystal.
I know me.
I see me.
Oddly.
But greatly.
Strangely.
But loving.
Weirdly.
But accepting.
I'm odd.
But I'm still me.
Love me, love you.
Love me?
What do you see?
When you look at me...

lets call this a r.o.a.s.t. moment.

(look that up in the archives if you are a new follower and have no clue what i mean by r.o.a.s.t. or i could just say it.. rambling. on. about. stupid. things. lol xD btw thank you for reading and following, followers and readers, old and new) =]

how you doing?
I think im doing pretty............... pass!

*warning. please feel free not to read past this point. you have been warned. what ever annoyance and other emotions you feel after and whilst read, are your responsibility. you have been warned. can't sue me. hahahahaha*


well I wrote a crappy song =o

I know its crappy because i have no skill at song writing =/

And look, there is me selling myself short again and having no self confidence... with good reason I'd say. Whats my problem man? I have some stuff about me i need to really really work on. I just don't know how. I mean, I can't give tips to myself... I'll just come back out as myself. Maybe I don't need to try not to be me? Well I can't trust that suggestion...well..because it's from me =/ and No... I am not biased.. against myself... that way... ok maybe i am, just not in that way i just realized... I am biased against myself in a way that I see everything i do as wrong, and I suck and i constantly make mistakes and screw things up for myself... well because I do. Thats straight, no chaser. Honestly, what i said there just then is an honest look at myself in the mirror, im not being to hard. And i didn't even list everything wrong with me either but, know what I say? Who gives a flying kcuf. I don't care if I don't like me right now. I can learn. And I can change things that are real problems, along the way. Like controlling my emotions. That is definitely not something to be overlooked. I can really be horrid sometimes and I am ashamed of myself =/ Oh well... I halfway wanted to post this on my blog.... but Naaah. tfs it stays. just for here. woo. special. i might post that song on my blog though. or keep it all safe and special to myself. yeah i think i will choose the latter. this song is just shameful. well not really. its truthful. about me. lol but it sort of is about my sister too so i guess my dad wasn't shitting me when he said i was just like her. that honestly makes my heart sink and makes me want to kill myself - but i won't though so spare me, if you actually stuck around to read this. im kind of at this point. and its weird. i was wondering what that point is when a person doesnt particularly want to live anymore...but most certainly doesnt want to fricken die. (that reminds me of some saw shit) i think that point is when a person turns to drugs. they are basically alive but they aren't living. seems their lives become based on the addiction that develops. they wallow in self pity. hm. suicide is a cowards way out but so is drugs. time for my decision. which shall it be? NEITHER. Can't decide for God when my time is....and im still going to be alive with drugs so why ruin my life? I see what happens man...and i don't want that to be me. So I won't let it be... Time to get out of the pity party. Our time is short on this earth and mine so far is still extremely short. and fuck, i dont know anything. but im willing to learn. and im not going to ruin my chances to do that. oh and people often say they dont care about what people think of them...but thats bullshit.. theres a little bit of that in everyone. just manifesting and waiting to let itself be known. so if you say you dont then you're a bullshittin hypocrite OR you just haven't found what it is yet. or else you would HONESTLY be doing what you wanted DAY IN DAY OUT. maybe. thats just my opinion. im entitled to it. but remember - if you actually have stuck out to read this crap - before you attack me with yours, im a kid and i dont know shit. and honestly i dont care for your opinion. i aint askin for it. you got mine by clickin this post, and i already warned ya at the beginning this is my journal. i writes what i want and what i feels. this be what i feelin and i wantsted to write it. yup yup. man i really have to stop using my friend as a...freakin....emotional punching bag... the way im feeling right now is a result of my own stupidity and ability to get easily attached...not his fault....oh and get this.. i actually matter to said friend. WTF??? Who the fuck would have though I mattered to someone - emphasis on I - now that is honestly surprising and i still don't believe it either.

well. i wish you love peace and happiness. please wish the same for me because im feeling kind of empty inside right now. not bad. not good. not anything. just empty. my nose feels kinda weird though. i friggin hate these year round allergies. oh and that spot i got bit by the spider at went down but it still itches like freakin crazy. i see something in the bite site too. if i hadnt freakin trimmed my nails yesterday from the jagged emeffers that they were then i probably could pull out whatever it looks like is stuck in my arm. i think its a scab but it could be a stinger or some mess. probably not though. i dont think spiders leave those. lmao what a dumb thought. thats bees. then they die. oh and this was a tiny brown spider i think. least i found one in my room. but i noticed my bite sites when i got inside from playing with dakota - family dog.

ok i've rambled long enough.

really. love peace and happiness. have good lives.

yeah this is going on my blog. sorry tfs.



*p.s., please forgive me for the swears. dunno what was up with that. they just flowed freely. i tried to stop them at some points when i noticed. but i dont feel like going back through this whole reallllly long page and correction all of that mess. i can changeeeeeee. i WILL change. i AM changing. i AINT talkin out of my neck. when i say something, I MEAN IT. Even if i don't do it on time lol. Like watching a movie a friend told me to watch. Two different friends told me to see "RocknRolla" One told me this like months ago. Well I finally "got" it and watched it. See, even something that simple, I am going to follow through as best I can. I even "got" the other movies they have recommended to me. Those will be watched soon. (Hey, I can't always be in the mood for action D= ) I'll quote Horton here: "I meant what I said and I said what I meant, an elephant faithful 100 percent" Alright? This is who I am, and yes, as well, I am now considering myself to be an elephant. figuratively of course -glances around suspiciously- lol*

iLike Quotes too

i only have a small collection, but i couldn't fit them all in the comment on another blog - so i just wanted to post mine up here, hopefully you all see something interesting...these ones just kinda...stood out to me lol....


"our truest life is when we are in dreams awake" - henry david thoreau

"rain does not fall on one roof alone"

"If you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you"

"I became insane, with long intervals of horrible sanity." - Edgar Allan Poe

"Love doesn't make the world go 'round, love is what makes the ride worthwhile" - someone on tfs

"You gain the most endurance by walking uphill."
-Some person on tfs

"The proper study of mankind is books."
Aldous Huxley

"do not adjust your mind there is a fault in reality" - someone on tfs
On the other side of the screen, it all looks so easy. - Flynn.

"There's only one good reason to be a writer-we can't help it! We'd all like to be rich, famous and successful, but if those are our goals, we're off on a wrong foot...I just wanted to earn enough money so I could work at home on my writing."
Phyllis Whitney

"There are no rules for structure but the ones you set for yourself. It's art! So by virtue of that there is no 'wrong form' because it's completely self-expressive, even in the structure. So go with what you like. " - some dude on the forum site

"One night the moon said to me, if love makes you cry why dont you leave your lover. I looked back at moon and said would u ever leave your sky"
"If you spend too much time examining life from every angle, you will never truly live..."

"Trouble is a sieve through which we sift our acquaintances. Those too big to pass through are our friends." -readsalot on the forum site

True beauty is on the inside
True love is on the inside
True peace is on the inside
The biggest Truth is on the inside.
-keetla on tfs

"I think it is important not to mix up the feeling of 'falling in love' with actual love.
The feeling you get when you fall for someone, that feeling of 'oneness', when you offer up your sense of self is in many ways fleeting.

Real love is past that, when you care so much for each other that you want to help, support and nurture the other's personal growth as an individual.

The head over heels romantic love happily ever after concept is something of a myth in the long term. What is actually there if you are committed and truly loving, of yourself and the other person is infinitely more powerful." -alexkidd on tfs

"Sticks and stones are hard on bones, aimed with angry art, words can sting like anything, but silence breaks the heart." -phyllis Mccginley


yup yup yup thats it for me... just a small collection...

if you got some, share them on your blog page, i'll read for sure (;

This mess got me hysterical!

lmao!!

can you believe that mess?

I'm sittin here rolllin man!!!

Its so confusing and hilarious... i duno what to do lmfao!!
these peoples are TRIPPIN OUT man foreal!!? Over some m-f-ing whoppers!!
Omg... watch the video...just spread it around...it might help a little bit...lmao!

Oh snap!

Man...I'm sitting here reorganizing my playlist right... so i decided to check out some of Jason Mraz's album... Oh my gosh man... I can't believe how much I'm feeling it... It's just really tight. My kind of feel. This is the kind of music that's just ME man...it's crazy... Yall need to check out his album though foreal....

I was going to list songs of note...but i'd honestly be listing the entire album =/ My favorites so far are "I'm Yours" and "Lucky"





Tell me, do you like them? Maybe I just have a funky sort of taste, but I'm really feeling them. I can kind of sorta connect with "Lucky" as well...

Bwahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!

Don't ask me what's up with the evil laugh. Honestly, I don't have a friggin clue. Lemme give an update though. Felt like I should blog about something even if it's NOT important. Hmm wait.. This first thing is important, to me at least.

Well I got into some crap the other day which resulted in some more crap. My laptop got bashed. So we can just forget the whole problem with the blue screen of death. No need to worry about that when you can't even see the screen lol. I've just got some more things to work on aboutme I'd say. I'm calling it renovation of ME. Who wants to help? Nobody? No??

Well... on another note I am using my mothers almost completely unused laptop - she has another one she uses as well. Thankfully before my laptop got bashed - don't ask for the story on that, its behind me - I copied a lot of junk over to my external harddrive in preparation for what was to come with the whole "blue screen of death" thingy.

Now I am basically just starting everything over on my moms laptop which I am just going to consider it to be a loan... until i can get my old one back that has like..zero space on its harddrive. nevermind that because i still have my external one =/ I don't want to take my moms laptop away from her even if she doesn't use it too often.. she bought it for a reason didnt she?


wait... why the heck did she buy it??? she had a red one when she bought it but then it got broken =/ so she used this one for a short time before she bought a mac.... man this seems like fate to me LOL, who cares if its for something this little lol...

Yeaahh... now... about my old harddrive. there is an assignment on there that I need to get and turn in whenever it becomes open again =/ a friend of mine told me an easy way that I could do that, so that's all well and good. Or else i'll just have to do it all over *sheds a tear*

on a LIGHTER note, let me share this song with you. tell me, have you heard it? It's by Priscilla Renea and its been stuck in my head all day. *singing it right now*

It's because I'm human

unfortunately.

I know why angels don't make mistakes, but that's why God favors us. (did i tell that right?) Now i wonder if i were made an alien would i make the same mistakes. would i make any at all.

i've made some pretty stupid mistakes in my life and im tired of hurting people i care about.

i've apologized, done all i could do to make it right.

but if i keep dwelling on these mistakes i will drive myself back to the brink of insanity.


its just a letting go time for me, i guess.

im doing that now.

its all i can do...just look forward a move. move forward. even the day after tomorrow will one day be yesterday.

this too shall pass (;

i hope i am forgiven by God...to the people i have hurt...i hope you can one day learn to forgive me, if you don't right now.

oh thats trippin

wtf...lol... My ma gave me this soap set the other day right? I just took it without lookin at it, something else to use so I don't have to use up the one i just bought from bath and body works...but man... i opened that mess up in the shower today, and a smell just wafted itself up into my nostrils and all i could say was "what the....kcuf?" oh and the kcuf was kind of high pitched... I read that bottle to see what the heck I was smelling... this junk said CHOCOLATE AND ROSES. I'm like n word what??? (my n word means neighbor btw, just making it as positive as people like to pretend) I'm sposed to walk around smellin like a tootsie roll? Lmao, I swear thats what that junk smelled like, i aint smell no roses, and I definitely didn't smell any regular type of chocolate..that junk was pure essence de tootsie man...no lie =/ and who in the WORLD would want to walk around smellin like chocolate all day? People just think ya behind is hungry lol. Got some melted chocolate in your pocket or some mess... Man, if you'd have seen my face, washing with that tootsie soap in the shower... I was so confused LOL... kodak moment, I'd say... That was a trip though seriously..

TBSOD

Yes I said it. The Blue Screen Of Death. My computer just got it...so now i'm just biding my time. I don't know what I can do about it and I don't want to wait until it gets so messed up that I can't log onto my computer. I should have been added Ubuntu as my OS...if i'd only had a CD... Dang... My dad should have been put his legit copy on onecare on my computer all that while ago. But I can't blame him...it's my computer... I'm sure whatever happened was my fault anyway. So I just spent all a while copying everything important to me over to my external harddrive. Good thing my mom let me have it. She didn't want it anymore because it went to her red computer that got screwed up somehow.

Man I aint lyin when I tell you I cried when I learned what happened to my compy was TBSOD....

I'm trying not to be too sad about it though...im still on it now so i wonder if it is ever going to crash....well..when. lol... and WHEN it does..im wonder what i'll do after that...

oh man this is so messed up.

Why the heck.

All these celebrities are dying and everything...and then my comp tries to croak on me??? wtf... this is so messed up

*sigh*

looks like everything is done copying over now =/

what about all my programs....
my documents and music is saved...i guess thats good...those were most important to me...and i transferred my notebook into documents as well so thats nice...man this is so messed up.. i dont want to lose my computer :'(

What am I going to do afterwards???

Stupid Tampa

Man we moved back to Tampa.

I am starting to regret moving back to the south.

Since I got here, I've been constantly eaten by bugs.

I think some spiders have gotten to me... all up the left side of my arm and back and under my arm...

They are switching to the right side now.

That is the pic of my arm. the lump to the right is the spider bite.

The lump in the middle should clearly be my pointy elbow... i had my arm at a weird angle.

now the lumps to the left...those be my guns baby XD! check em out *mean mugs*

Ok im just kidding...at the moment they are more like water guns... but im workin on them (;

Edit: Oh yeah, also I've gotten bitten in my face a lot X(