Methinks I'm...

... going back to my idea of becoming a physical therapist. Time to think it over with myself through these keys and into this journalblogbox.

I chose pharmacy because I wanted to be able to have my own business, my own shop... That's pretty much it. I don't like science all that much, or medicine. The idea of creating meds doesn't naturally excite me... I made myself think "Oh that's cool" and man, the schooling is just tooooo dang long! I don't want to be in school for all that much. And... I'm seeing stuff I don't like. I know it's not all aspects of pharmacy, but I see that some do the animal testing... I tend to forget these things. I don't really want to be in aaannny part of that. So, I looked back into physical therapy. It's looking good to me. I have choices of where I could work, good pay... stuff to do, not just sitting around!

The plus side is that it seems this job will keep me fit. I could open up my own office, or I could work anywhere I want and open up my own store for something else, though I'd love to have my own book store...maybe start up my own place, or own a franchise of one of these big places. I know the small businesses tend to get squashed. :|

Even better about this is that the schooling isn't that long... a doctorates degree in this field is about 3 years after undergrad school. Employment is expected to grow... job opportunities will be good =o!! Job opportunities are even better in rural areas.. that's kind of where I want to be. Get away from folks..maybe get a big place where I can grow my own food rather than get poisoned by what they give us in these grocery stores... Small town life is nice too :D Get to know everyone, forge bonds.. that'd be great =o! It's hard to do that in cities, you know..be in a place where everybody knows your name, and you know theirs too. =o and MAN do they make big bucks o.o

The possibilities for me are endless :D

Embracing Something New

Ya know, sometimes I feel like a right carnivore. On certain times when I'm hungry, I'll get this intense craving for something meaty! And if I can't get to anything, I settle for cheese. Never understood that last part, though... But, I never exactly felt right about eating meat. There's always something in my mind that says it's not right. I tried giving up pork, seeing what happened to those poor things in the factories...and i felt awful learning about I know we were given dominion over animals and all that, but a very smart person told me that we were also supposed to respect those animals too. For the most part, although not entirely, the respect seems to be missing. I don't really know where to start on the research to see which companies treat the animals right, and buy my meat from them... and I don't really want to anyway. Meat just feels kinda wrrroonng to me sometimes. yo no se.

And on a lighter note, there are loads of benefits to vegetarianism. Me likey. It's impossible getting healthy in this house though... well, mostly STAYING healthy... maybe a bit of both. but ima try. woo! gonna lead a healthy lifestyle with a pure body and mind. [and soul too :D but not from vegetarianism] man, i'm glad to have learned about the benefits of walnuts, too... i'll have to work with the stuff we have in our house though. probably won't be possible to go vegan xD maybe when i'm older, used to this vegetarian stuff........and buying my own groceries ;D i'll try that veganness. right now i'll do fine just to refrain from eating meat though...

also.....ima try drinking water more often...there was a time when i quit soda all together... i kinda got smaller o.O but one horrid day at the mall... i was thirsty and mountain dew was all they had.... well, i coulda gone to a fountain but i wanted something to take with me... okay i was weak D= but... let's just say goodbye soda, too XD oh and bread... i'd once gave up bread...that was nice... i dont eat too much bread though... shant be a problem... i just have to get used to drinking water rather than artificial drinks and juices.... its much better for my bodeh and i know this, but i just enjoy a little TASTE to my drinks... i've grown up on "orange drink" and such D=


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Oh.. there was one more....

I totally forgot to include how spiritually confused I've been. I think I'm just going to stick with my old beliefs, I guess. But, that world has been shaken. How strong and even true can that faith be? I'm glad I've not had to hear anyone elses religious views lately... making stuff worst. You dunno how close I've been to just...not caring anymore... Yet still remains a fear of being cast down into the fiery pits of hell if that happens. Maybe it still resides in me....