...

im so angry with myself...

for being the same me that i thought i wasn't.

but i dont wanna hold on forever. i wanna let go because it causes me pain, even if its my own fault. i dont want to deal with that. i dont want to learn to deal. i got ruined and once again the short end of the stick and once again its my fault and what can i do? i dont wanna let go but i do