KCUF MICHAEL BAY

Ok so... I know by now you have all heard of the Transformers, yes? Well... in the first movie I didn't really think about it but don't you think it just a little odd that... in the cartoon series there was no black transformer but in the movie Michael Bay added one anyway just to have him ripped in two, making him the first to get killed in that movie? Well maybe that is making something out of nothing. But this next thing you can't in all good conscience ignore.


It's some really messed up stuff, and it confirms my belief's that Michael Bay is in fact a racist man. See everyone is rushing out to go see the Sequel to Transformers but they don't even realize the prejudices that go throughout the movie. Again Michael Bay has chosen to add more black transformers, which isn't really a problem, he's diversifying the movie... but why stereotype??? This is so wrong... but what they do is they give the transformers golden teeth and make them act really stupid. Some would consider the way they act to be acting black but man, that is a huge generalization, there is no way to "act black" black is not a style. it's a race.


Now the gold teeth isn't the worst of it. Honestly if that was it by itself, it wouldn't matter at all...oh but what this piece of tihs Michael Bay did next... Oh man makes me want to punch him in the giblets. In this movie the other robots can read hieroglyphics. So Shia's character (Sam, I think) asks the black robots to read the hieroglyphics right? Well these fools get to acting all stupid and saying things like "Man you know we can't read". OMG! Am I the only one who see's something wrong with this here??


That can't be the case man and if so...you've got some rethinkin to do..... maybe not though, we all have our own opinions... I just think that's really messed up. But what can we do? Just not see the move.. that's what I'll do. He doesn't need my money. Wasn't going to get it either, though. Hello....internet =/


*edit* here is an article that talks about, itself. otherwise....google it babeh....

robo-racism

Dag man...foreal?

Where I been at?
I aint even know the BET awards was on tonight lol... Where have i been? Oh yeah. Not watching television and most definitely not watching BET. Dang... We spent all the time tryna find the right channel and get stuck with soulja boy lol... People were jammin to him too.. Jr (my brother) said that ppl were applauding soulja boy saying he was what rap was all about because he made his own style... his own style?? It's called "crap" Well anyways...I'd like to see it to catch the MJ tribute. Maybe some awards for actual music too...who cares.. im out lol

OMGOSH MAN CANT WE GET A BREATHER?

Ed McMahon
Farrah Fawcett
-Saddest of all- Michael Jackson

And now... The OxyClean man???

WTF dude??

I'm sorry, this death may not mean much to others but it honestly meant something to me =/

I grew up watching that oxyclean guy..
He was amazing...and genuine, it seemed...

I wonder why when i learned of Michael's death I didn't scream out NO! With a mouth full of crackers, as I did with the death of the oxyclean man. I don't even know his name =/ But it really is a shame... Can't we get a break from all this? 2009 is going to be known as the death year...Year of Death. Y29Death....? Idk... Let's brain storm and figure out a clever name for it. I can't think of any other year where so many people who impacted us so greatly all died...Especially one after the other... Maybe the oxyclean man doesn't really fall into that category though lol....sorry...but its all just a little bit much...this guy affected me =/ Anyone else? Or am I just weird... lol don't answer that...

o.O.........

Honestly, I agree with everything KevJumba has said =/
I think it's true.
And about the child molesting thing. It's all about the money baby =/
Jordan Chandler even came out and admitted that he was lying after mike died. Thanks to feedmekicks for the spreading of the knowledge (;

Welp... I have officially lost my train of thought... basically yeah... I agree with everything that was said in this video...and it's a curse and a blessing that this boy admitted he lied... how a curse? because he did it too late... he put michael jackson through hell for a lot of years when all he was trying to do was be a good person... even caused the man to become addicted to pain killers. But now his guilty conscience can't handle it since MJ has passed...Also.. I thought michael jackson was beautiful... he could have remained beautiful even with his skin disease...i saw pictures of it and he was...but that damn joe.. damaging his self esteem and image... Michael got all those surgeries and messed up the original beauty >.> owell though...i have lost my train of thought once more......

This surprised me so much

Luther Vandross Whitney Houston Dionne Warwick Stevie Wonder

Man I love all those singers so much! And OH how i love that song!! I was just sitting there in a trance watching each one of them sing on their turns and i was recognizing each one... But couldn't see the last female and then she got up for her turn to sing... It was whitney houston!!! OMG! I did not realize how much I loved Whitney Houston until I saw this video =/ I was sitting there watching and enjoying and loving...then whitney popped up and I kind of squealed "omg!" and clasped my hand to my mouth...that was so very strange... lol! I wish Whitney would get her act together =/ Hmm... Maybe this moment can decide for me who my favorite singer is... I mean my favorites are in my playlist... But i wouldn't go into and just pick a favorite overall from there....Even though lauryn hill is the shiznit....and India.Arie most definitely is... and so is john legend...and some others... But I think I will have to go with Miss Whitney here... Readers tell me.. who's your favorite artist?

The late and very great

Michael Jackson...
Yeah a little late on this post, the network I was using yesterday wasn't working so well. Michael Jackson has passed... What will you remember most about him? I will remember his influence on the community, and how he affected us in such a positive way. Even brought the races together. Had a chance to be both black and white. I wonder what his perspective was on being each one...lol which was better? I will also remember how great of an entertainer he was. He put his all into everything, just for us. He went 250% and was even working out so hard and crazily for his last tour, to be the same michael jackson - as a performer - that he used to be, even at 50 years old. I will also remember how he reached out to the people. His love for children seems to be questionable... but who knows what he did behind closed doors. Only he, those children, and God can. But I understand why he preferred them better, just as friends..as opposed to surrounding himself in adults. In an interview he said he takes to children because "They are the only ones that tell me the truth." Kids can be brutally honest. As a person and a celebrity, that seems to be what he needed the most, especially with the upbringing he had. I know I wouldn't have wanted to surround myself in a bunch of "YES MEN" that tell me everything is perfect about me just because of who I am. As my mother said...a kid would probably just go up to Michael Jackson and say "why your nose look so funny?" and that coulda been the reason he got surgeries (LOL)... I will most remember how his music crosses over through generations. Hopefully his music will still be passed down to younger generations that haven't gotten a chance to know him. Yesterday I saw little little kids playing in the store and it's like...wow...they will never experience the magic...some of us will never get a chance to meet him or even see him live in a concert...well lets enjoy what he's left us with, and pray that his family.....and his die hard fans....can get through this... lol...Try not to grieve and mourn the loss.... Try to celebrate the life he lead and remember him for all of the great things he accomplished, and all of the things he inspired others to accomplish. Many of the great artists we have today are in fact because of Michael Jackson. Remember the good and the great about him, not slander his name, when he can't even defend it.

This is how I will remember him.....

How will you remember him?

S'about time

That i posted some of my writing up here... other than the two poems.. or 3.... i think it was just 2...those were weird anyhow.. man i am a weird person but guess what. i dont care =D I love being me everyday of my life, and i love being around ppl who love me for being me...the weirdo... XD Well anyway...here's something i wrote that stemmed off a mini halfway dream halfway daydream that I had. I think i might include it in the story i am writing. if i ever get back to writing it lol. such a procrastinater i guess...before my excuse was lack of inspiration but what is it now? I've got my inspiration and you know what? i really love my inspiration =o idk why it's my inspiration... it just is... It's like how the werewolves imprint in twilight lol... well anyway here's that lil piece of nothing I wrote. *don't even think about jacking it cuz I got my shet backed up.*


*During the harsh battle, the girl's friend was coming close to the end. She was terrified, stunned, not knowing what she could do next. She had the power to save him, but at the same time, she didn't. The boy lay thrown to the waste side, turning into a vicious monster. In a matter of seconds, he was complete with the change, with his new orders in mind. Quickly he was charging after the girl. But he was still her friend, she could do nothing but let forth a blood curdling scream.*

Hearing her scream, the boy comes over to the girl to ensure that everything is alright, though little would be, hearing a scream like that. Feeling his presence the frightened girl opens her eyes and looks up at her friend. She began to scream and cry and plead to him. Pleas of being sorry and wishing she could have a chance to do it all over again or take his place and that she didn’t mean for it to happen. She scooted away across the floor using just the strength of her arms. Though desperately wanting to fight to live, she felt that if he got her, it would be just what she deserved. The boy was perplexed. Of what was going on, he had absolutely no clue. He tried to calm her down during her hysteria and as she scooted away he placed a hand on hers. Just like that, the girl was instantly back. As if a magic word had been said to bring her back after being hypnotized. Just a little bit more oriented than before... from whatever crazy dreamland she was in, he thought. When she felt his touch she somewhat knew where she was again, and that he was ok. She began to cry and say things like you’re alright, and you’re alive, and I’m so sorry, I didn't mean to let it happen. Then she got up and tackled him in a rib crushing, breath taking, bear hug.

K folks that was just a piece. if it made no sense to you, then too bad because its making sense to me in mind...maybe cuz i'm the one writing it >.> well anyway after I woke up and developed the dream into a story i had a plot already set in mind for it but I'll never tell (;

I'm just wondering

I feel kinda changed... like a new and different and better me... not too much change, but that maybe i am just a little bit different than before... i feel like that change has taken place in the course of 10 months maybe? idk...just this past year..been going through a heckova lot... ya know? Well i feel the change in me. I can see it...somethin just aint the same and thats not necessarily a bad thing... so yeah i aint wondering about the change.. i was just wondering if the change really took place in the way I write... Can you tell through my posts?

Dudes be trippinnn

I'm not saying I'm in a situation like this right now, and I'm not saying I'm not either. But it is so funny when a dude is just tryna holla over the internet...and in real life. Just kickin some really weak game. Then you get on myspace and try to holla at somebody...? MySpace? MySpace ni*** what??? Now I know its got to be common knowledge now that myspace is the new booti call, especially sense "he's just not that into you" publicisized that mess. So you KNOW what a dude is all about he tryna holla at you through the internet... I just frankly find it hilarious XD. What do yall think about that? Ladies I know yall got plenty stories of being in situations like this.. Fellows what's your perspective on this? Defend your gender!! Haha jk.. So lemme know, are you the type to pull some mess like that or do you treat a lady like she's actually worth something? If you are the latter, what do you think about a guy that does this kind of thing?

I think I've fixed it

Hello readers =)

Thanks to those that have let me know that they cannot comment on my blog anymore.

I think I have fixed the problem.

So go ahead and try it out, tell me if its working.

I can't be so sure because it is my own page =/

Welp, thanks for reading and for trying to help me out and what not.

As for one thing that I blogged about and asked a few questions..made some requests... It's all good fam =/

Thanks for showing concern

I got this one though

Keep posting great posts, you guys are really awesome =)

bri~

crap man the pain DX

My left arm and hand kind of hurt. it's not unbearable but its really uncomfortable and kind of painful. I think I have developed carpel tunnel. Idk.. I have felt this in my hands before but not this much. I do spend a considerable amount of time with my computer. Be it internet, solitaire (hecks yeah i fkcs with that), or just writing.. And man what the heck is with my head. For the longest I have had these never ending headaches. sometimes they are extremely light but sometimes it is the exact opposite. right now it is about a medium.

Wooow...

I'm watching the news right now, as I'm hittin up ppls on tfs... and This dude just said Happy Father's Day. Not happy *BELATED* father's day. Just happy father's day. Just like that. Now I could swear that father's day was yesterday. Either he made a common mistake or these fools are rerunning the news!!! And boy I'm betting it on the latter. we're in a motel 6 with this cheap ass cable i guess. Dude I think they are replaying the news. Wtf?? Oh and get this. I used to be doin my thing on yahoo answers right?? well i stupidly provided a link to the pirate bay.org forgetting that whole "law" and what not >.> Well some jerkface reported me and my account got banned. I was getting there too man, it's just the man tryna hold a sista down =.= And get this, this is the part to get. not that other part. my brother got into answering questions on yahoo answers rihgt? this boy has found a system man, and he cheated his way all the way to level four in like a month dude =.= that seriously peeves me off that I worked so hard legitimately and only got to level 2 (LOL) and was about to be level 3, and he gets up there just by batting his long eyelashes >.< He's sittin here bragging and cracking jokes. Hilarious boy though foreal. You should know him =o! Oh and even worse!!! After they suspended my account they kept sending me emails about how my answers were being chosen as best answer and shet...man it was a bunch of them too! Just torturing me. My points going up and up and my not being able to do anything about it. And they wouldn't let me make an new email account in my own name. Good tihng I had already made a back email address long ago. So I also went and made another one with an anagram of my name so I could have 2 accounts. I need to jump on it like my brother has. monopolize...is that it??

Man Oh man, I can't believe my eyes...

I was in the itunes store to download podcasts right? they are free, so is itunes, if you don't have it and want to check out their freebies..so i went to the religion and spirituality section to get the pocasts for joel osteen, joyce meyer, and bishop t.d. jakes... and I scrolled down to see if there was a different one for td jakes cuz I wasn't sure that was the right one.. dude... All the way down at the bottom was a christian porn site... I'm like wtf??? My mind was drawing a blank.. how the heck does that junk even work..??? Is that not redundant?? Maybe the people in them are married or something...but still man... That just makes no sense at all to me... I don't even want to know... lol but if you do, go check it out lol, you can problem answer my questions ;) Man whatever, I aint tryna go look and find out how the heck that even makes sense, and then get a face full of porn in the process... What..are they praying while they get busy? Maybe it's descreet or something... I really just don't understand it man.. Someone enlighten me if you do... I mean I get ppl have urges and all...but... How the heck does that even work???

Woo baby...

It's been a hot minute since I've blogged. Been busy like crazy lately. 'Cept it didn't feel busy, though I was. Couldn't get to the internet to blog, and when I could, I didn't feel like it. We are moving to Tampa. I'm sure I mentioned that before, also that I was born there. Oh! And my parents are working at the hospital I was born in. That is so awesome. ANYHOO... So we got back from Cali a few days ago and spent some time with trifling family members and nice ones too. For a couple days. Then this morning we drove 7-8 hours up to Florida. Man that may sound like a lot but it didn't feel like nothing at all. Especially after driving for a few days from Georgia to Cali when we first went there...and having made the 7-8 hour journey by car for a good amount of my life to go visit family. Trifling family. Hypocritical family. Nice family. They come in different colors shapes and sizes. Oh the joys of family. Yeaah...so anyway we reached Tampa a few hours ago. Drove around. Looked at the city a bit. Checked out our new house that we can't get into until the 24th...there was a car and a light on but no one was home, as well. Then got stuff with hotels situated. And now i'm just back on the internet ya heard? Well anyway... I guess thats just a pointless introduction to this blog..because i had a real point to it that I seem to have been avoiding. Well...guess I'll start by saying..I am saved. Born once more. I am trying my hardest to live my life right and live it for God but still I find myself slipping and failing and falling into old habits being the old me...that i hated just a little bit. I screw things up for myself constantly and failed to realize that I was trying to handle life all my own when in reality none of it is up to me. And why things are going all wrong is because I'm trying to do it all alone and I'm just feeling like the lone ranger, having to take care of things myself..but what I really need to do, and knew that I should, just didn't realize that I wasn't...is just to let go, and let God. For some reason that has been really hard for me. I've been trying to change for the better but sometimes it turns out to be the for the worst because I can't change without guidance...I don't know how I'm supposed to be..I don't know anything... So I've been praying a heck of a lot lately too..more than I've ever done my entire life..and I feel a lot closer to God, like He really knows me. That's a wonderful feeling, really. That someone can actually know who you really are when it seems that absolutely know one does. Makes me feel a tiny bit less alone as well... And the thing about it is for me, that though i don't portray it at all, I am a very private person. Things that are important to me, that I truly care about..and things like how I am REALLY feeling.. I keep to myself... My relationship with God is also something that I keep for myself. I don't really like to pray with other people I just realized. When I visit my family who appear to be deeply religious and deeply hypocritical at the same time, we always pray aloud before meals...before long drives...but I always find myself praying silently to God afterward, as if I hadn't just prayed along with everyone else. So odd, and I didn't really know why I did that...I guess because my relationship with God is really personal and I don't like for other people to nose their way into it. Like I almost just now told what I'd been praying about too but there was a huge red flag that popped up I guess, and i didn't really rethink it, i just didn't type it out. To the readers that know me personally you may know that I spill all, but in reality I'm not telling you everything. I'm telling you what I comfortable with saying, though most would not be comfortable with some of the things I tell... for instance, the drama my family has that is most usually rooted within my estranged sister. I guess that stuff didn't really matter to me too much...well...ok of course it mattered to me...but it didnt matter so much that it was something I had to hold inside for myself. All of that was too frequent and mind wrecking to not vent about. And I know from experience that it is not good to hold things inside..and its especially not good to hang on to things, not forgive, and not let go. Now I'm sure I was going somewhere else with this. But no, if you know me, honestly I don't always have something to say... So I guess the moral of this story (???) is... Well... It's not really a story... So I guess..when you step away from this blog and proceed with your life, I guess the one most important thing I want you to take with you is that you need to let go. In what sense do I mean? Every sense. You need to let go of when people have done you wrong...Forgive and forget. You need to let go when you have done something wrong. Try to make it right, and if all else fails don't stress over it. You'll drive yourself insane. Just let go. And most importantly....you need to let go of your life...what I mean doesn't seem apparent when I say that though...it seems that I mean to go kill yourself, but no...I don't mean that... I mean that...everything you want isn't always going to happen... And you cannot go life alone...and you can't really just take the wheel and steer the car where you want it to go on the road of life... because its going to twist and turn and there are going to be detour signs and all that great stuff... the road's gonna take you where it wants to take you...for as long as it wants to take you. you can't drive it all by yourself...so hand over the wheel and get some help for the journey =/

Let go. Let God.

yeah...guess this is a r.o.a.s.t. moment...

dude i am a stupid loser idiot. and i get to attached. i am so ready to move to florida. but i really would just like to take a ged test. go to a community college, get a nursing degree and move to a state no one knows im in a be done with it. im so sick and tired you dont even understand, and i can't even vent how i want to because someone i dont want to read thismight. plenty i dont want to read this might. but one is just more potent than others. fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. lord forgive me. i just dont know what to do but nothing and just stop caring. i dont want to cry though. so i wont. who can i talk to? no one. *sight* pitiful lol. sorry for wasting your reading time. maybe next time i will post something of worth. but you know what? maybe i won't because this is my personal blog, about me. if you want to read something from me about something current and or other than me than read my other blog.

Back at it

Sorry peoples, been delaying a fresh post the past couple days. handlin some business but i figure i might just as well do both as the same time.. So yeah...been out a lot with my dog lately... This thing is so cute...but oh so bad. She's ingenious man... The only thing she hasn't figured out yet is how to unlock her cage but I know when she's in there she's thinking "oh in due time master. just you wait." Oh and when we take her outside she'll pick up her own leash and go trotting around with it. She always seems to know where we're supposed to go too, even when we don't. Like when we all went to disney land she lead us in the direction of the trams when it was time to go. That was freaky. She seems to know which hotel is ours also... The other day we were playin fetch outside then she got bored and went to do her own lil doggy thing so I sat on the steps and she came over to me, I thought she just wanted to play or something, but after nudging me for 5 seconds she ran up the stairs towards our door. When my brother and I didn't follow she stood watching us for a moment than kept going. So we're like, I guess Dakota decides when we're done now and we go up. By the time we're up there she's at the door already, but I get there first so she's kind of looking at me expectantly, then she remembers that my brother is the one that always unlocks the door (i never bring my key) and she starts staring him down. Weird pup. She has ways of tricking you into staying and playing with her. She'll knock her ball or bone out of her reach and give you a sad face so you have to give it back. She's a little attention whore though >.< If you're playing with her but not fully focusing she'll attack what ever it is you're dividing her attention too. She'll also make you play with her with both hands. Like once she managed to knock my cup out of my hand. dude that ticked me off. I was thirsty like heck =.= Welp here is a pic anyway

I absolutely love this song...

and oomg she's such a lovely singer!! her voice is so pure!! and man that dude is so ROCKIN that guitar, u can see the passion flowing through him <3

"Rainbow"

Fallin' out, fallin' in
Nothing's sure in this world no, no
Breakin' out, breakin' in
Never knowin' what lies ahead
We can really never tell it all no, no, no
Say goodbye, say hello
To a lover or friend
Sometimes we never could understand
Why some things begin then just end
We can really never tell it all no, no, no

But oh, can't you see
That no matter what happens
Life goes on and on
So baby, just/please smile
Coz im always around you
And ill make you see how beautiful
Life is for you and me

Take a little time baby
See the butterflies color's
Listen to the birds that were sent
To sing for me and you
Can you feel me
This is such a wonderful place to be
Even if there is pain now
Everything would be all right
For as long as the world still turns
There will be night and day
Can you hear me
There's a rainbow always after the rain

Ohh, whoa

Hittin' high, hittin' low
Win or lose you should go, yeah yeah
Getting warm, getting cold
Weather could be so good or bad
But baby this is life now don't get mad no, no, no

Coz oh, cant you see
That no matter what happens
Life goes on and on
So baby, please smile
Coz im always around you
And ill make you see how beautiful
Life is for you and me

Take a little time baby
See the butterflies' colors
Listen to the birds that were sent
To sing for me and you
Can you feel me
This is such a wonderful place to be
Even if there is pain now
Everything would be all right
For as long as the world still turns
There will be night and day
Can you hear me
There's a rainbow always after the rain

Life's full of challenges
Not all the time we get what we want
But don't despair my dear coz I know now
You'll take each trial and you'll make it through the storm
Coz you're strong my faith in you is clear
So ill say once again this worlds wonderful and
Let us celebrate life that's so beautiful, so beautiful
Ohhhh

Take a little time baby
See the butterflies' colors
Listen to the birds that were sent
To sing for me and you
Can you feel me
This is such a wonderful place to be
Even if there is pain now
Everything would be all right
For as long as the world still turns
There will be night and day
Can you hear me
There's a rainbow always after the rain

Ugh!

Dang man!! I just saw the trailer for NEW MOON the sequel to TWILIGHT of the TWILIGHT SAGA... And it was lookin fly then a mug man!!! but wait there's more!!!! get this peoples!!?! They are already freaking screwing stuff up! Its like dude wtf frozen banana!??!! Like the way Edward leaves Bella for instance. From what I saw in the trailer it looked like he was still being all lovey dovey looking out for her safety and what not... But the way it was supposed to be done, which would have made it awesome, and made you hate Edward like you were supposed too...was that he was supposed to straight cold and clean cut with it. Tell her he didn't love her and never did. Not say he's looking out for her safety then give her a kiss on the forehead. WTF FROZEN BANANA??! Bella wouldn't have stood for that shet if that was really the case... he HAD to make her believe that he hated her guts so he would be able to leave her and keep her out of harms way... FROZEN BANANA MAN!!! Already screwing stuff up... And I can't remember but I don't think Laurent was supposed to be so freakin friendly and compassionate towards her either. I wish they could have made the wolves look more real too >.< And when that movie comes out BOI!! If that fight seen between Edward and Jasper isn't longer than that SOMEBODY IS FINNA GET SHOT UP IN THAT MUG!!!!!!!!!! >.

THE DEATH & LIFE OF CHARLIE ST. CLOUD

Now a book I would recommend for people to read is THE DEATH & LIFE OF CHARLIE ST. CLOUD. By Ben Sherwood. That is a really great book in my opinion though it isn't so long. And it is also my favorite. And get this peoples - The other day before I'd gotten it at the library I was reflecting on the book and saying they should make a movie of it. Then I wanted to read it again. So I was talking to a friend of mine and telling him about the book and also telling a story about a girl that almost killed us one time.

So part of that story was that the girl kept interrupting my movie which was highly annoying. And she kept sitting all close and junk. But that's a story for another time, lemme know if you want me to tell it. So I was trying to look up the name of the movie that she ruined, and could only remember that Zac Efron was in it, and it was before he was some big teen heartthrob and what not. So yeah I went to his wikipedia page and found out that the name of the movie was Miracle Run. Great movie by the way, I would recommend you look into it.

Also - if you don't really know about the television watching sites online and stuff and movies, they're all free, hit me up i'll let you know them... OR I might as well blog them down one day. So yeah the friend and I were talking and junk and it took me 30 full minutes before I looked down at the rest of Zac Efron's filmograhpy and saw the name of my friggin favorite book - THE DEATH & LIFE OF CHARLIE ST. CLOUD. Turns out they ARE making it into a movie... So I get what I want but it comes with a price. My book is being made into a movie, but Zac Efron has to star in it. Dang... what a friggin price man D=

Owell, its aight though. I had just figured that the main character should be a bit older than Zac Efron, more buff...and manly you know... not so effeminate... But then I thought about it again, the main character, they showed as a child before though, age 17. Not for too long either. Hopefully that's part he has...But you know something though... I shouldn't trip... They never make the movies as good as they make the books... Some say a picture is worth a thousand words but sometimes it's just the opposite... Sometimes the words are more important, as they leave your mind to create the picture on your own, exactly how you want to. Not how someone has made it for you to see.


lol my post is almost longer than the book itself
Visionary out.

Gone.

Gone. That's how I feel right now foreal though. Kinda gone. Vacant. Empty. Ya feelin me? Well that's not what I meant anyway but the thought had occurred and so I decided to just go ahead and write that mess down anyway. Well I was talking about this book I just finished reading, that I picked up from the library. It's called Gone.

It was an interesting enough concept when I read the inside of the cover so I picked it up and decided to check it out. Oh boi, then I started reading it. It was coming off as the stupidest ish I'd ever read. And to top it off they kind of tricked me... I thought what they meant about disappearing on their birthday, was that people disappeared by age 18. But these fools were talking 15 so it was kinda like this lil preteen book though...

All of it was just a little bit cheesy. But I kept on reading because I wanted an explanation for why these things were happening. Not because I was genuinely interested in the plot. Though I do have to admit that sometimes there were moments in the story where the author - Michael Grant btw - really grabbed you with what was going on.

Those were good points...but they were a bit melodramatic too. Ok so I guess it was a teensy bit interesting but man...not really. Oh and guess what. I still didn't get my explanation. Oh sure they told me the reason why everyone over the age of 14 disappeared, but I figured that shet out at the beginning of the book. In no way shape or form would I recommend anyone to read this book. Unless you're bored, need a good laugh...or are like some little 4th grader who really likes to read. They mislead me so that kind of pisses me off a bit but not really. Well yeah really. I was expecting this book to be the most awesome shet I'd ever read.

But that's my own fault though. It's what happens when you assume things. Coach Walker used to say that you could separate the word ASSUME into three words.

Try it out.

How my mind works...

It's really a strange thing man.
How it works? I have no idea. I do know that I cannot clear my mind for anything in the world. I just don't know how. I'm always thinking of crap. And over thinking crap. It just never has a rest man. One day I was going to relax and just let ideas for writing just come to me. So I sat down for a minute...and started thinking of ways to relax... Wtf frozen banana!!??? And I really didn't know how dude... I was like...do I cut out this extra noise? Close my eyes? Yada yada? And a friend was just like... just close your eyes and stop thinking... So I tried that... it was not working man I was just like shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit....what??? So I tried just thinking blank spaces blank open whiteness... But dude I was still thinking O.O???? Just tryna concentrate on keeping it blank...man that wasn't relaxing at all *sigh* and thoughts kept creeping up and everything... So I kinda just gave up on that one... I do tend to over think stuff though...Right now for one thing I'm constantly over thinking I'm feeling pretty stupid though foreal XD... an outright damn fool man... You know something....? I really bother myself sometimes =o! Well... Florida here I come. Fresh start. Hopefully this is the last one before I flee to Canada. Yes flee. I guess I'm a runner. *After thought* Hmm... I'm kinda rambling right now about something stupid....should I call this a r.o.a.s.t. moment? What number am I on anyway...


*after after thought*
Dang now I feel even worse, and more of an idiot. I went and posted this on the wrong blog. It's gone now though but still... I'm just going to stop thinking about things... Really... I...just....it's just stupid man... I'm just going to stop caring >.< Didn't work last time, but I'll make it work now. Motivation. Hells yeah. Dedication.

Too whom it may concern...

I made another blog... Yeah.. I'm wondering though... how the heck do you customize a blog? I'm looking at these few that I follow and man seriously they are tight... but i don't know how they did it. I want to customize the page for the other blog. Express a different side of me that isn't just with the sweet and simple. I tried, for a blog I follow that I read the most (feedmekicks*) I tried getting in contact to ask that question and others... it wasn't workin out for me... How do you get in contact with other blog authors???

P.S.
These are not rhetorical questions. If you're reading, please answer =/

R.O.A.S.T. Moment #10

Woo boy. Something funky is on television on TNT. No idea what it is. Some law show. But it's not law and order. Only things I can think of are Cold Case and CSI. I like cold case but never seen the other. Well what happened was a woman and her child were acting kind of skittish and it was time for bed. And yada yada drama drama, the mother reassures the daughter that the man (???) wou... oh it's Cold Case - theme opening just came on. So yeah she assures her the the man.. would not be coming back. Then you hear someone enter the house. And turn on the lights. And come to the bedroom. Next thing you see is the woman and the child getting thrown out of the building and fall splat to the ground. The woman lived though..and is kind of out her mind... woo boy..cray stuff.

WOO HOOO!!!! ....r.o.a.s.t. moment #9 btw

Yeah...nothing really exciting here. lol sorry for the trick. I really felt like saying woo hoo. so woo woo woo it's ok. I'm kind of bored and wondering what I should do besides things I know I should be doing right now. yep. that's me. procrastinate by filling my time with other meaningless crap. so I was thinking about making another blog...but I dunno about what.

Ohkay well I think I've got 2 ideas. but I know it won't be like this one, because this one is just pointless and about me, myself, and I. I think I will go with another idea I had earlier....waaayy back when. I was thinking of making the blog about writing. but I would like to do that for another one, really. So yeah this next blog is going to be that previous idea.

BTW The Matrix is on, and I am just not at all following it. I have been doing so much other crap right now I haven't been paying attention like I meant to. So I have no idea what is going on right now. Though I have seen it before, along with others in the series... the only thing that sticks with those though, are the images. Not the plot.

Plus I was younger when I saw them and not really paying attention to the plot. And man how generic is it that her kiss brought him back to life. That's kinda tight though. And the fact that he stopped the bullets. That is awesome. Yes. That's the part that I am at right now. I'll have to watch this movie another time. Dang Keanu Reeves is awesome.

And good looking too =o. But whatever. Wooo man O.O I just saw something freaky deaky. He just jumped inside this man. That looks like it hurts. Man I'll have to watch this movie another time. But whenever I watch movies by myself I'll cut them off and do something else, or I will fall asleep, even if I'm not tired.

Oh yeah and about this next blog. I'm going to customize it to go with what it is about. But I'm not sure how. I'm going to figure it out first. This blog right here, I keep it sweet and simple, because that's how I like stuff... But the other is going to look a bit better.

Look out for it btw. I'd appreciate if my current readers followed that one too! *Halo appears as sweet angelic smile spreads across face* - which reminds me of when i said that to a friend of mine and then he ate my halo D=

Sincerely, Jane - Janelle Monae

Thought I'd post this song... Along with the lyrics. Hopefully the listener pays attention to the lyrics...




Left the city, my momma she said don't come back home
These kids round' killin each other, they lost they minds, they gone
They quittin' school, making babies and can barely read
Some gone off to their fall, lord have mercy on them
One, two, three, four, your cousins is round' here sellin' dope
While they're daddies, your uncle is walking round' strung out
Babies with babies, and their tears keep burning, while their dreams go down the drain now

Are we really living or just walking dead now?
Or dreaming of a hope riding the wings of angels
The way we live
The way we die
What a tragedy, I'm so terrified
Day dreamers please wake up, we can't sleep no more

Love don't make no sense, ask your neighbor
The winds have changed; it seems they have abandoned us
The truth hurts, and so does yesterday
What good is love if it burns bright, and explodes in flames
(I thought every little thing had love but uhh)

Are we really living or just walking dead now?
Or dreaming of a hope riding the wings of angels
The way we live
The way we die
What a tragedy, I'm so terrified
Day dreamers please wake up, we can't sleep no more

I've seen them shootin' up funerals in they Sunday clothes
Spending money on spinners but won't pay college loans
And all you gangers and bangers rollin' dice and taking lives, in a smokey dark
Lord have mercy on you
Teacher, teacher please reach those girls in them videos
The little girls just broken Queen, confusing bling for soul
Danger, there's danger when you take off your clothes, all your dreams go down the drain girl

Are we really living or just walking dead now?
Or dreaming of a hope riding the wings of angels
The way we live
The way we die
What a tragedy, I'm so terrified
Day dreamers please wake up, we can't sleep no more

We live and then we die, and we never know the right
So now, now were gone now, on your mark
We live and then we die, and we never touch the sky
So now, now were gone now, on your mark

Five, seven, eight, two, one
It is now time, for you to come home my dear
You've been gone long enough
You must come, you must go