How were your holidays?

Although, I highly doubt anyone will answer this, I still felt like asking.

Mine were really cool, and yet a hot mess all at the same time.

Nothing really went according to plan, and when I think about it I ask myself, "....What plan?" It was just a big jumble of... spontaneity, I guess.

I mean, we decided to go to alabama at the last minute. Grannie aint getting any younger. Had to see her. I was gonna finally see my person... that was a bust lmao. I went to a basketball game with my cousins, sister, and her boyfriend...well it was a series of games. Chicks was hating... on my sister. It was ridiculous. People will act stupid towards someone they don't even know. After a minute it got pretty old. They got shut down though. That's what happens...in small country town, Ozark, Alabama... all they have to do down there is eat, sex, have babies, cause drama/gossip, and get in different sorts of trouble... you can imagine. So, you're a female, a good looking one at that and get around some other females down there.... all you're gonna have is problems whether they're good looking or not. They weren't. lol

Man it was trippy... first it was the girls in the beginning... later that night some completely random chicks...and that was the cause of a white girl throwing paper at us then junk started with those girls. I won't even get into my feelings on that matter or he cause of it, not at risk of offending people, but at risk of getting carpel tunnel....and burning out the readers eyes.

Actually got to visit the person... yeah i don't think i'll say my person anymore... i don't really...stuff...bothering... i dont know, what ever. so I visited that person...all late..and upset..and the visit lasted 5 minutes...we walked to the back to get some books, my dad was trailing us the whole time. lmao now that was funny...freaking co-ops mess. he went unseen. no, really. he was practically invisible. I was looking around for him every step of the way, saw nothing. ridiculous. then we had to leave... i messed up stuff with the visit... made it awkward... messed up stuff before that.

man, i am the biggest screw up you'll ever meet! Not even for the visit (already past that one, who cares) but everything! even the littlest things. I just keep messing up... small things. So small, that it's only noticeable to me that I'm a screw up... if anyone else notices it, they choose to say otherwise... let me mess up on something big...they'll see... Lmao, I'm just a clutz! In every possible way.

It's funny, actually :^D
'Specially the way my thoughts plague me and won't leave me alone after I've messed up!!!!! Hah, just kidding(am i?)

Yeah anyways...that was the day after christmas. that visit. erm... we were supposed to leave then, but my parents were to tired. so we stayed and slept. we were leaving the next morning but we got a call from my grannie. my aunt had a stroke, so we rode back. they dropped us off, my parents to dear grannie to the hospital... later on my aunts kids showed up and we older ones watched the littles.they were at the hospital all day, sometimes back and forth...people were coming out the wood works to be with her...she didn't need that though.... but i can't get into that. we stayed one more day, then left some time yesterday...got home at night...soon as we reached town we got a call that things were a bit worse. or something... midline shift... pressure in brain increasing... but going there wouldn't help. only make things worse...so my parents stayed... more screw ups from me followed...then sleep and now i'm cleaning my room, getting ready to finish my school reviews and pinata, then let loose on those christmas presents. you know, set them up and stuff... that's pretty much it. yaaay.