Haven't really blogged much lately.
Though a lot of stuff has been going on I just haven't felt the need.
It's been a pretty busy month aside from me turning 16 on the 13th. There was a lot of crap that happened but nothing that i care to put on blast though.
And seeing how everyone goes through different things in their lives, my pain isn't any greater or lesser than anyone elses. With that said I don't really feel the need to vent or put any of my fam drama on blast. But its giving me new inspiration to keep writing and to think a little bitter harder about my future. Too be honest I've been thinking a lot about my future for the longest, when most kids couldn't care less but now I've finally gotten somewhere, and am at a point where I feel comfortable and confident, instead of worrisome. So~! Uh, now it's the end of the month and we are settled and comfortable in our home in Alabama. My parents just left yesterday. I wonder how this time alone is going to be...for all of us. For me it will be the same as when they are here. I still won't be able to do anything because I have to depend on other people for everything based on their rules which limit me. The only difference here is dealing with my siblings attitudes alone and be forced to live on their schedules. Now I am limited even more. They use the fact that my parents say we all have to go out at the same time, to their advantage. I only get out of the house when they want to, when they bother to tell me that they are going somewhere. I've been through this system before so I know exactly how its going to work this time. It is extremely unfair because you know they are not going to do anything unless it benefits them somehow. The only people my sister and brother think about are themselves to tell the truth, so I might as well just try and keep to myself for these three weeks. Now anyone should be able to see why I am so focused on my future. I don't want to have to depend on anyone else when I should be able to support myself. I hate being limited by others. Well this is the month of March for you. Not a very detailed description, really but this month just doesn't mean so much to me anymore.
Though a lot of stuff has been going on I just haven't felt the need.
It's been a pretty busy month aside from me turning 16 on the 13th. There was a lot of crap that happened but nothing that i care to put on blast though.
And seeing how everyone goes through different things in their lives, my pain isn't any greater or lesser than anyone elses. With that said I don't really feel the need to vent or put any of my fam drama on blast. But its giving me new inspiration to keep writing and to think a little bitter harder about my future. Too be honest I've been thinking a lot about my future for the longest, when most kids couldn't care less but now I've finally gotten somewhere, and am at a point where I feel comfortable and confident, instead of worrisome. So~! Uh, now it's the end of the month and we are settled and comfortable in our home in Alabama. My parents just left yesterday. I wonder how this time alone is going to be...for all of us. For me it will be the same as when they are here. I still won't be able to do anything because I have to depend on other people for everything based on their rules which limit me. The only difference here is dealing with my siblings attitudes alone and be forced to live on their schedules. Now I am limited even more. They use the fact that my parents say we all have to go out at the same time, to their advantage. I only get out of the house when they want to, when they bother to tell me that they are going somewhere. I've been through this system before so I know exactly how its going to work this time. It is extremely unfair because you know they are not going to do anything unless it benefits them somehow. The only people my sister and brother think about are themselves to tell the truth, so I might as well just try and keep to myself for these three weeks. Now anyone should be able to see why I am so focused on my future. I don't want to have to depend on anyone else when I should be able to support myself. I hate being limited by others. Well this is the month of March for you. Not a very detailed description, really but this month just doesn't mean so much to me anymore.
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