I'm silly...

Nah not really, I'm a realist >.

(lies)

I'm pretty much a mixture of both, and I wonder which takes over the most.

For one.. when someone has something they might need to tell me... I'd rather they not kcuF around, trying to spare my feelings and what not =o

just tell me what they have to say so i get a dose of reality and get over whatever was ailing me in the first place... =o

you know what i mean?

Get right down and dirty, to the nitty gritty of the matter =o...

i mean saying something in a nice way is never opposed but i mean just someone doing everything and anything to cause no hurt feelings, ending in my living in some imagination-land with my head in the clouds?

my parents are very honest with me when it especially matters, so i think that might be where i get that from...
who knows =o

that also hinders me a bit though... i look at things with such logic, and see everything realistically and then i things like "what are the odds of me being able to do that or have that or become that"...that might stop a bit though... I'm going to bring this pharmacist dream to waking life =o

writing as well >.> (definitely)


Maybe Canada...


I've learned something from my uncle but i need to check my sources...he said that tax takes away 50% of your paycheck over there >.>

Now Hun, i can't have that XD.......

Then with this chance of going to college over there - I'm going to try to put that to life as well - maybe living over there for four+ years (grad school) and just going to college might be all i need...just that little taste of Canada...

of course i could always figure out if that's what i want to do and where i want to be when I get out of school... but idk man... I'm rethinking it... one son in the air force, and of course moved out...and of course one daughter being estranged, last ones in Canada running a business >.> the visits will be limited......that's too much for my mom....
I don't know what I'm going to do now...I've got time to decide though, and figure it out a bit more. lol LOTS of time. But idk...It seems like I might be deserting my family if I did that. I mean that WAS the original plan.

I was planning for Canada so I could just be able to get away for a little bit. Things change you know, but I don't have that desire to get away anymore... I don't think I will again, but who knows...

For a while now its just been me wanting to go to Canada just to want to go. I noticed all of the benefits and everything... This place just caught my eye and I began to want to go for other reasons... but I dunno... I think I might be bound to the states yall =o

Well this post be out!

~LovePeace&Happiness~

P.S. If you hadn't noticed by now those ^ are my favorite colors in that order =o!
(the love peace and happiness sign)