Emotionally Attachable?

Madre claims I wear my heart on my sleeve...

I do have a tendency to get attached easily...that's a problem...and I'd thought I'd found the right way to fix it, but that failed =/

Basically =o I like this person but I feel deeply that the feeling is not mutual... and I'm just getting hurt; its my own stupid fault. So I'm going to practice some freaky mind over matter crap =o

Apparently, if you wish something to be true, hard enough..then eventually it will be true to you =o

I'ma try that mess too. lol.

I don't want to like this person...right now it feels like no one else will ever measure up, and I'll never feel for anyone the way I felt for this person... but I don't want to be like that...ruin every future relationship I have, by thinking about a person that was never mine to begin with, instead of thinking of the person I'm with at the moment =/

This feeling is hindering me...only leaving me in heartbreak each time the not so shocking realization hits... and its only going to leave me in more heartbreak... so I'm just going to try to get rid of it...mind over matter...

But, you see the thing is...its stained in the back of my mind...

The type of things that get stained in the back of your mind, they are kind of their forever. No amount of magic products, and washing and scrubbing can get rid of it. The best you can do for it is... paint over it. The thing about that is, though, over time the paint peels, and tears. The stain becomes revealed again. It was never really gone to begin with.

That is just the same as how, previously, I would try to get rid of things I was feeling...like depression for instance. I would force it back to the darkest corner of my mind, but every now again, like a bad kid in time-out, it would poke its head out and then start running around and wreaking havoc. The times I wasn't feeling the depression, it was never really gone. That's why it was so easy to come back.

I don't know man =/

I'm not going to try to paint over this stain, this time. I'm going to keep mentally scrubbing at it until its gone completely. Mind over matter. I can shake this feeling.