Where ya at?! Boost Mobile!

Aha, just kidding. Boost Mobile has nothing to do with anything at all... i just felt like adding that, 'cause the commercials always have something in there about "where ya at?!" or something... or maybe I'm confused.....

Ok, well, I know I'm confused! I'm kind of at a loss here D=

Dude, where you at? When I found out that bit of information, stuff was different for a while, not at all in a pleasant way. After a minute, stuff got back to...somewhat normal, at least for me I guess, and for awhile I was able to not think about what I found out but it comes back occasionally just taunting me.

You know what? I really don't want to be selfish, here. It's hard not to be selfish in this situation, increasingly hard. But, maybe I'm a selfish person. I'm trying so I'll take credit for that. It's just that I just want it one way or the other. Not in the middle. You can't have your cake and eat it too! Well, technically you can... so that phrase is just BS. Whoever came up with that had no clue what they were talking about. Who gets a piece of cake and just sits there and looks at it? Sorry, back on subject... You can't have your cake and eat it too. It's one way or the other, and I don't even know where you're at in this! I can only speculate, which I shouldn't be left to. You haven't even communicated with me about this! You really need to do that! Are you still where you were at before? Confused and unsure, etc? I really don't want to put on the pressure if you are... that's where it's getting hard for me not to be selfish over here. I'm going through things too! But listen to what I'm saying here.... You cannot have your cake and eat it too. It's one or the other! It's going to work for you to feel things for two different people and keep them both, because if that's how it's gonna be... I'm sorry, I'ma have to bounce.. I'm not used to this kind of stuff. I don't know how to handle it.... I don't even know how it's going on down at your end... Do you even know how to handle it? Woo... what a mess. Glad I get to rant in things like a blog... so grateful to have this thingy... like you're going to read this anyway. Though, I really wish you would.

Because one day it's just gonna burst outta me