Things Change

They sure do.

Usually when a person puts up a title like that you'd expect them to go deeper into the topic.

I won't though. Why? Because I don't feel like it. This blog might get read by someone I don't want to see it. I might just have to make a completely new one for those extremely personal thoughts. Don't follow, its personal. I just have to be able to get it all out from somewhere. I just kind of wish things weren't changing...but isn't this what i wanted? I can't make up my mind. Forget what I wanted then. What about what I want now? It's in the paasssst let it go, i'm sorry =/

ohkay thats about all i could say on that.... might get a bit too personal.

maybe i'm just making something out of nothing but i'm really feeling this drift and separation lately and i don't like it. I guess it is just getting us ready for what's to come when I go back to school, but why start early? Why not enjoy the time now.

I wonder if I am the only of this party that see's at all what is going on. Does the other of the party realize? Not care? Is there a reason? Can't ask or talk about it, i don't think. Can't list reasons for that. Best to just let things flow as they are because everything happens for a reason. Let it flow. Things flow and the direction of said flow changes. Things change. Don't want them to but can't stop it from happening.

Ohh well =/

I don't feel like making this post look sexy either. Just the plain, how it is now is fine.

Stupid problem of getting attached. I tried not to. What the hell happened to "strong willed"?? Forget that. I am weak. Simply weak. Just want to...unmask the superhero, object of my hero syndrome (is it? or is it that word that starts with an "I"? No way it could be that big deep word that starts with an "L".....???? "L" isn't "L" if its not returned...... right?) <========= if you didn't understand a lick of that... ask me =o


*Edit*

Oops... I went ahead and went deeper into the topic anyways... lmao At least I didn't go tooooo deep into it. But... chea...(haven't said that in a long time...that part of my personality was fueled by my buddy... I'm missing you buddy but I guess we've all got to go our separate ways at some point... Sad that the times we talk are so few and far between. I wish I hadn't moved from Georgia. Forget the drama at Etowah, all was well that second year. But still I ran, like a coward.)


Ohkay.... definitely yeah... I am DEFINITELY going to make that other blog now. Deeper into my actual thoughts we go. The Inner Mechanisms of My mind...etc........................... is No longer a safe place for me. I'm back in a box and this blog is no longer my freedom. So that's what my other blog will be. My Freedom. Time to get started.


If you would like to visit My Freedom....i'm sure if you know your blogger site then you'll be able to find where it is hiding. I refuse to post a link on this blog for fear that My Freedom will be seized. I pray its location won't be compromised >.> If you would like to be annoyed, freaked out, bored, terrified or maybe even entertained...then you can check out My Freedom when it is ready... but know that it is exactly what it's name implies >.>.... I might even disable commenting... Keep it truly Freeeeee....... Uh oh.. Time to get dressed... We're going back to Universal today. But everyone has been asleep all morning and partly still are. Woo baby. There is a lot I haven't blogged about. Been having busy days lately. Maybe that's why there is some drifting going on? better charge that phone, i might be able to prevent the drift...



no... it's no hero syndrome....its no infatuation... its e v o l <====== that's backwards....


*through your flaws i see perfection*