Things dwelt upon become more depressing over time,

Forgive and forget. Live and let live. Those are words that are hard to live by. Yet you are still supposed to. I'm trying. Not for others, for myself. If I can't forgive others for what they have done to me, how can I forgive myself for what I've done to them? So as not to dwell in the past I won't repeat events that have come to pass. I'll just let them go. but it is extremely hard. So... these last couple of weeks must be spent alone, focusing on myself instead of others. Maybe I got through to one... maybe not. But why spend time getting close to people when all they do is constantly try to hurt you. Who would want to be around that type of person, who just doesn't seem to care that they hurt you, just doesn't think about the words that they say to and about you, but oh because they weren't trying to offend you, it wasn't supposed to. It's your own fault that you got offended, not theirs for not considering your feelings. Well......who am I kidding...some people you just cannot change. They continue hurt you whether they say they mean to or not, they are going to do what they are going to do. Thats not the life I want to lead, and I refuse to surround myself with people who lead their lives that way too. Seeing as how there is no one in my family i can truly be around with out getting hurt, used, or manipulated. Then I will live the remainder of time I have to spend with them, in my own solitude. I know that you can't run from your problems but what can you do when your problems run you everyday and you have no piece of mind no.... no anything? It was said to me before to remove the people from your life that don't seem fit to be there... but what can you do when those people are your own family? Always with the drama. Just spend my time alone until I can get away is all I can do. All I will do.