constant pain is a result of my ultimate clumsiness <3

In... every way imaginable, why do people always want what they cannot have? Why can they not be happy with what they were given? Why do people always want 'just a little bit more'... Just because I ask does not mean I'm excluded from this list. Our vices and virtues spawn our whole characters. Why do I want the things I want, when wanting them only causes more pain? Aah constant pain, emotional... physical...? My body often betrays me in ineptitude as much as my emotions do in idiocy. I'm so very clumsy in every way possible... Yet I can't help but feel =/ But...I have the constant nagging feeling, and just know that about this one thing I must be right. Nothing will come of what I feel for this gent, so it's best left kept to myself. Nothing good at least. Though the loss of a comrade could result. but are we even considered friends either way? All the more reason to keep my big mouth shut =D .... Really, sometimes I can't hold water, but when I'm drinking it, I won't spill... Aah patience is a virtue.